Thursday, April 17, 2003

-My Ambition-

Anyone who had been to school will surely be asked of this question. Most of the time, we would write long essays to becoming a great professional to help the society when we grow up.

Often teachers & doctors were the most popular career ambition that an average 10 year old would think of. Many years later, when we advance our studies, there’s likely a chance that the same question that will be posed again but in a totally different manner.

From “What is your ambition?” to “Describe your dream career and give reasons for your statement” You see, as you grow older, you would realize that things are not as easy as it seems. Doctors need to study in Pure Science, straight As in biology, chemistry & mathematics to stand a chance to study the course of becoming one. Even so, it takes 6 years to complete. Been a teacher too have its own difficulties such as been able to tolerate a bunch of defiant student like us. Another thing about been a teacher, is that you have to set the perfect example all the time. Any misconception you tell your students will land you in their parent’s hot soup.

When you are 16, your ideal ambition will be to become a singer/artist. As you know, artist commands a great fame & paycheck and there’s many admirers waiting for you to adore. For a sports enthusiast, their likely ambition is likely to represent the nation pride in international games. Because you know that sports are something that you no need to study, just practice, practice & more practice.

Finally, you’ve completed your studies. You take the first step into the working society. You will realize that everything you used to hope for is now where near the state you are today.
If you don’t know, there’s no ambition in the real world. People only live by year to year resolution.

From “Ambition” to “Ideal Career” to “What do you see yourself 5 years down the road..”
Sad.. but true. There’s only a small fraction of percentage that people end up doing what they want in the beginning. Sometimes even if they finally do what they want, they might feel that they have made the wrong choice. A designer who has to rush projects for client is someone who will dislike his/her job one day.

I used to think that ambitions are set to encourage yourself to reach a certain goal. Now I look back, I feel that ambitions are set to tell yourself that there is no ideal world.

Nevertheless, “My Ambition” is still a favorite topic for the young. Maybe the sole purpose is to let their creative brains to yield some fruitful thoughts.

My ambitions is to be a
1. Freelance Writer
2. Freelance Comic Artist
3. Freelance Fashion Designer
4. Freelance Photographer
5. Freelance Entrepreneur.
6. Freelance Song Writer/Singer.
7. Full Time Loving boyfriend/husband.
8. Full Time Committed worker.
9. Full Time Caring son.
10. Full Time Helpful Friend.

Though, it may looks a handful too much, at least I know there are some things which only needs to be done when I’m free… that’s why its call freelance.

If you have the time, let’s say waiting for bus/someone. Think of this “What is your ambition last time it was asked and how far are you away from it actually?”
You may be surprised but I’m not, because life is meant to be like that.

“ Don’t stop to celebrate small success but build on them to achieve greater ones..”

Anntonii Lim
Time Capsule

Everyone have their own time capsule hidden somewhere at some point of time. It’s just that nobody seems to notice they have kept a hidden time treasure till the day it was rediscovered. A time capsule is often a box kept of memories, which may be lying way beneath your wardrobe. You often don’t know when the box was kept and why was it there. But the joy of finding it is better have having a dream of long time ago.
As I was clearing my shelves this New Year, I stumble upon a box which I have long forgotten its existence. Opening this “Pandora” box came mixed feelings of happiness and sad. I was happy because I have found things that I thought had been thrown away. Christmas Cards, letters sent by people whom I used to know…. I was sad because I had lost so many friends over the years.
Some of these cards & letters was dated almost a decade ago and most of the senders I have already lost contact was as long as the cards showed. Some kind of friend I was.
As I picked up the yellowish papers and cards, I had this warm feeling that many years ago, I was well liken by so many people. Every festive season, my mailbox will be filled with well wishing cards, some were hand made, some were bought with the price tag not remove.
As our life continue to get busier each day, we are sometimes outpaced by the demands of luxurious living. We meet new people each day, we forget old friends each day. Those people who have been with you at some point of time can only be relived when you have the time.
And time is easily wasted because we will never have enough of it to do all the things we can or we want. Friendship is tested beyond time, to see a friend whom you never see in a long time is happier than finding your missing wallet.
I slowly repacked the letters & cards back in the wooden box and put it back beneath the shelves. The time capsule will be kept for a long time before I rediscovered it again. Lying unknown to anyone but myself. Till the day its reopened, it will continue to bear the memories of my life and the great friends I have known throughout the years.

I believe everyone have their own time capsule. It’s just that we are often too busy to notice it. Look around your room, your wardrobe, your drawer and anywhere that you think you have kept something before and trust me the feeling is great when you find it.

Not because you have found your lost items, but because it rekinders your memories once more.


“ Time is often short, because we fail to halt……”


Anntonii
My First Post...

The time is late...This is my first time trying out this service. Everyone has their first time, i guess. But not all first timers are generally happy with their results, some could be devastated with the outcome. I guess this may be the only place in the world where I can voice whatever I want, whereever i want. Making crude remarks to those people who really annoyed me. Let this little space on the web be the little treasure box where maybe 20 years later... when technology advances much ahead of me... I can still remember I once own this place... a tiny place deep down in my heart where I once lived...