[ - The day I swallowed my pride - ]
Pride, often a word that people talk about and how some of them actually fought and died over it in the past. I just felt I lost my pride the other day.
You see, I grow up without having any problems financially. To put it to a point that I've hardly ever borrowed any money from friends before.
So I didn't realize how difficult it is to open your mouth to ask for something taboo which people will change their perspective towards you.
"What's the problem?" most of them asked,
And so it began that people starts to probe into my problem rather than telling me whether or not they can spare some cash. It the end, they got their satisfaction by knowing the problem never mind how bad situation I was in.
Some of the people I've asked are those who've known me for many many years.
Times like this, I would have at least hoped for people to pull me through when you realized you only have $30 to last a week.
In the end, it was my colleagues who helped me pull through to my payday.
In the end, I understand how importance it is to have cash flow.
In the end, nobody whom I “expected” would have helped, did anything.
My current situation did turn for the better but that didn’t mean I’ve got out of my debts.
To put it in a way, I don’t really need people’s help at this point of time.
I asked myself, would I help other people when they required any financial assistance next time?
I don’t know,
But one thing for sure, I won’t be asking them why they need the money.
I’ll just simply reply an “ok” or “sorry can’t support”
And I will never take anyone for granted that they are supposed to help me.
The worse may have been over but I will never forget the time which I swallowed my pride.
Glad it didn’t choked on me.
Anntonii Zenix Lim
Pride, often a word that people talk about and how some of them actually fought and died over it in the past. I just felt I lost my pride the other day.
You see, I grow up without having any problems financially. To put it to a point that I've hardly ever borrowed any money from friends before.
So I didn't realize how difficult it is to open your mouth to ask for something taboo which people will change their perspective towards you.
"What's the problem?" most of them asked,
And so it began that people starts to probe into my problem rather than telling me whether or not they can spare some cash. It the end, they got their satisfaction by knowing the problem never mind how bad situation I was in.
Some of the people I've asked are those who've known me for many many years.
Times like this, I would have at least hoped for people to pull me through when you realized you only have $30 to last a week.
In the end, it was my colleagues who helped me pull through to my payday.
In the end, I understand how importance it is to have cash flow.
In the end, nobody whom I “expected” would have helped, did anything.
My current situation did turn for the better but that didn’t mean I’ve got out of my debts.
To put it in a way, I don’t really need people’s help at this point of time.
I asked myself, would I help other people when they required any financial assistance next time?
I don’t know,
But one thing for sure, I won’t be asking them why they need the money.
I’ll just simply reply an “ok” or “sorry can’t support”
And I will never take anyone for granted that they are supposed to help me.
The worse may have been over but I will never forget the time which I swallowed my pride.
Glad it didn’t choked on me.
Anntonii Zenix Lim
6th April 2007
