[Failure... a second time?]

Technically 9 hrs from now, I will facing something which had haunt me for the last 2 years. Something which has shattered my confidence, something which made me believe I am a failure. Something which some of us would not want to face it in our lifes.

Yes.. I would be sitting for a subject which I've failed in the first time of my miserable route towards higher learning.

People might argue that resitting of an exam is part & parcel of education life. But you have to ask yourself, this is something which you've failed before. Can you do it again? ensuring there won't be a second failure? Only time & effort would tell I suppose.

There is a certain mental doubt deep inside me which ignites the fear towards this examination. I have to admit well, I'm at least better prepared than the previous attempt but its more of a physcological thingy which is ringing in my brain..

People asked me how many subjects I've taken and passed? 15 subjects.. including my Final year project. A whole 15 of them and I've only failed this subejct of Instrumentation Electronics. What's so difficult about this which other subjects can't hold a candle with?

I won't have an answer for that.. because this is definitely not the hardest subject I've ever studied..

29hrs later, I will be facing my final lap in this tiring 2 & 1/2 yrs race towards my completion of my Bachelor in Mechatronics Engineering. Fruits of labour shall be seen in due's time and I will be waiting.

It won't be like the last time when I almost left the entire examination sheet blank. For now, I vowed never to give up without giving it a fight tomorrow. There is a burning desire to "beat" that bloodly paper up and show him who's the boss in the ring..

Till then, its back to the drawing board.. as the old folks always says...

8th Sep 2004

Anntonii Lim