{ 雨の天使 }

Rain Angel

Chapter 4

[ The rain that warmth my heart ]

Are you happy?
With what you are currently doing?
With what you’ve got and all the things which you never get?
When was the last time you were happy?
Was it yesterday, is it today?
Did you felt a sense of warmness across your whole body.
A feeling that so intense that it spur you to move both side of your lips upwards as you let out a smile?

People who doesn’t smile often, often have the nicest smile.

Wilson strolled along the void decks across the streets as he head home.

The rain seems almost stopped as the sun finally crawls out from bed.

There was pain in his heart.
There was sadness felt within him but he didn’t feel the pain unbearable.

In fact he already knew they wouldn’t have a future the day they started.

It was a taboo relationship that never should have started.
She was wrong all along. They can’t be together forever.

Wilson could still remember the day when they had their conversation.

Was it Love that night or just two lonely hearts yearning for each other’s attention?

Wilson was wiping the bar counter when he noticed her sitting alone in the pub.

She had been sitting there for awhile and didn’t order anything.

“Hi Miss, can I get you anything?”
Wilson offered his assistance.

“Can you give me ‘Love’?”
Wendy asked.

Wilson looked at her for awhile before reacting.
“Hmmm.. well.. if you want, I can try. I’m experimenting some cocktail mixtures.

You want to try them?”

“ If that will give me love… why not?”
Wendy winked cheekily.

“So.. you’re waiting for your friend?
Seems like your friend is very late”
Wilson spoke as he prepared her drink.

“Nope... I’m alone… all alone”
Tears rolled down her cheeks as she tried to look away from him.

“ Here’s your ‘Love’ ..I call it ‘My Love’ ..If you drink it, it will become ‘Our Love’ “

Wilson tried that to cheer her up.

“Really?”
Wendy wiped her tears. Wilson nodded.

“Cheers! Then.”
Wendy lifted her glass towards him.

The glasses of cocktail touched as feelings exchanged during that night.

From that night on, Wendy starts to frequent the club more often. Wilson welcomed her company as he tried to impress her with newer mixture of drinks that comes along.

Maybe she was trying to escape her loneliness as she tried to channel through means of drinking and making new friends.

Maybe he too was lonely and needed companionship from anyone.

Wendy’s objective seems to be seeking more attention and caring from anyone other than the man that only knew how to work every day & night.

The man who gave her a family, yet didn’t know how to love her.
The man who’s lawfully her husband.

Soon the companionship that she yearns becomes a relationship which both of them had developed.
The times they shared weren’t long but it was enough to proclaim their undying love for each other.

Wilson had promise to save enough money to marry her when she finally divorced her current husband.

He tried to save up by holding 4 jobs which he begins working from eight in the morning to the wee hours of midnight.

All for love, some might say.

However, everything came to a halt of red lights last night.
A secret & discreet relationship that was finally exposed.

All that he had planned didn’t worked out.
All that she had promised didn’t fulfill.
All the love that they laid down didn’t materialized.

Finally, she had chose bread over love.

Wilson head into the showers as he reached home.
As water ran down his head.

The images of Mavis flashes across.
“Who was that girl??”

“Why was she there in the first place?”
Wilson couldn’t place all his logic together.

Wilson looked at the mirror.

“I want you to be happy! Because life is suppose to be happy!”
Mavis showed her trademark victory sign and start walking back.

For no reason, he let out a smile as he think back the images of the girl.

“What a stupid girl..”

Wilson thought as he smiled.

It was something that he had not done for a long time.


As much as he wanted to let it all out and depressed himself,

Wilson just couldn’t find a reason to do that.

It seems rather childish and immature but he had promised the girl that he would be happy.

At least for today.

As Wilson picked up his jeans to wash, he felt something inside his pocket when he tried to reach for some coins.

It looked like 2 dolls with a cloth being tied up which looked like the head.

Wilson didn’t know what it was. It’s resemble more like a figure man.

The girl as she squat down most probably dropped the figures which landed inside his pocket.

As Wilson examined the figure,
there were some words written on 1 of figure.

“Mavis Will Pass her A Levels with Flying Colors!”

“The girl should be from St Andrew’s based on her school uniform. ”

“Such a irritating yet interesting girl…”

Wilson thought as he looked out of his window to see the last drop of rain fell below as he tied the dolls.

[To be Cont]

{ 雨の天使 }

Rain Angel
Chapter 3

[ The rain that drenched both of us ]

I always liked the rain.
I like to sit beside the windows and have the feeling of security inside a shelter while seeing people running around looking for one.
I always secretly prayed for the rain to come.
But I wished it only to rain in the afternoon... when my parents are resting.
I can't pray for rains to be at night because they will be out working at the market,
So if it rains at night.. I will be very sad...

Wilson walked out the telephone booth.
The rain was still pouring heavily throughout the whole park.
He was drenched from head down and was swaying side ways.
Mavis stood blank back inside the booth as she saw him further and further away from her sight.

“Will he really kill himself? What if he really kills himself?? Will I be charged with assisted suicide??”
Trains of thoughts rattled through her mind at the speed of 100km/hr as she watches his back view slowly diminishing through the rain.

Suddenly, there was a bolt of lightning that struck down from the sky and series of explosive thunders follows. When Mavis came to her senses, she saw Wilson already collapsed across the walk way.
“Oh my god..!!! What happened?? Is he dead??”

Mavis dashed out of the booth and ran towards him as fast as she could. She didn't cared less about herself being drenched by the incoming droplets as the rain pours.
Upon reaching him, Mavis didn't dare to do anything.
Wilson was motionless as he laid.
Mavis didn't know what to do next...
CPR recovery? She remembered how it was taught in school but she's just too nervous to recall anything now.

All she could do was to stand and stared at him.
Then she squat beside him.
Finally she tried to touch his hand.

Wilson opened his eyes and stared at Mavis as her hand touches his.
“Arrrrrrrrghhhhhhhhhhh!!!!”
Mavis screamed as if she had seen a ghost.
“Can you please.... don't shout in my eyes?”
Wilson spoke as he closes his eyes once more.
“Why are you lying down here in this heavy rain?”
Mavis tried to shield herself and little bit of him as she spoked.
“Does it matters if it rains or shine? Because I don't see a difference”
Wilson continued to ignore her.
“Will... will you kill yourself as you've said over the phone?”
“I might... after I killed you first for eavesdropping my conversation.. who knows?”
“You can't kill yourself... what about your parents?”
“They are no longer with me”
“They migrated already? Everybody seems to be migrating nowadays”
“Argh! Can you please stop bothering me?”
Wilson sat up and looked at her.
It was the first time that both of them came face to face of each other. There was a moment of silence across them except the sound of the pounding rain.
“I don't know them.. they left me when I was very young. To me, they don't even exist”
Wilson didn't know why he told Mavis about the truth behind his parents that day. He had never told anyone anything about his past.
“Oh... that's really bad but don't worry! As long as you keep trying, you will see them one day!” Mavis tried to encourage.
“Please leave me alone”Wilson replied.
“I can't! If you commit suicide then I will become assisted murderer because I know you are going to kill yourself but I didn't stop you!”
“Did anyone ever tell you that you are very irritating?”
Wilson picked himself up and move on.
Mavis followed behind.
“Can you promise that you won't kill yourself?”
“Ok. Ok I promise. As long as you stop irritates me, I will not kill myself. Done?”
Wilson finally gave in.
“Ok. Then now you owe me something”
“What? Why??”
“Because I've just saved your life!”
Mavis returned a grin.
Wilson just shake his head in disbelief.
With all the commotion going on, it wasn't surprise Mavis had long forgotten about school.
She suddenly looked at her watch and began panicking.
“Oh my god! Oh my god!!! I'm late... I'm so damn late for school”
“So what? You can always take a medical leave”
“Can I do that?”
Ahhh... Choo! Mavis started sneezing uncontrollably.
“See? Now you can go and see a doctor”
“But I don't have enough money to go see a doctor..”
Wilson took out some notes from his pocket.
“Here's $50.. please go and see a doctor”
“But I can't take people's money!”
“You never steal or rob.. and didn't you say I owe you something?”
“Yeah because I saved you! Heehee”
“Then take this $50 and go see a doctor so that I don't owe you anything anymore”
“Wah.. your life only worth $50??”
“Then what do you want??? take it please and do whatever you like with it”

“I want you to be happy! Because life is suppose to be happy!”

Mavis showed her trademark victory sign and start walking back.

The bitter rain can make a person cold but those words that came out from her mouth really made Wilson felt a moment of warmness in his heart.

“Yeah.. right.. what's so great about being happy...”

As both of them walked opposite directions, the rain was stopping and the sky begins to clear up.

“Ma... I'm home”
Mavis said as she opened the door.

“You never go to school today?”
“I did... but I didn't feel well so I borrowed some money from Hanling and went to see the doctor..”

Mavis letting out a smile.
“Then why are you so happy? Happy because you no need to go to school?”

Mavis's mum glared at her.

“Nope.. I'm happy because I saved someone today!”

Mavis said as she looked out of her window to see the last drop of rain fell below...

[To be Cont]

A Lost Valentine's

Chapter 11

~~{ Epilogue }~~

Have you ever felt so lost & down when you lose something important in your life ?
but become unexpectably surprise when you’ve gain something else?
What had you lost?
What had you gain?
Was it the End? What is the End?
The End is just another beginning.

The end of one story only leads to the beginning of another.

The night sky was filled with clouds as the two of them walked down the park behind their school.

The moon was partially hidden behind the cloud but it shone enough to see the shyness & awkardness of both of them.

For they didn’t know what to say, as they continued walking & walking.
It was as if two lovers’ first time out on a date.

Nothing seems to be able to come out from their mouth as they looked at other.

“Why did you left… without saying anything…?”

Ken finally asked.
It was indeed the first thing he wanted to know and something had to know.

“I… I don’t know…”
Janice tried not to look at his face.

“How can I like the same person as my best friend…?”

“And you chose to go away? Did it help?”

“Ken, I didn’t choose to go away. My company had all along tied me up with the course and the date was already fixed… I just.. didn’t let you know. ”

“But you liked me all along right?”
Ken proceed.

“I……..”
Janice seems to have no answers for all the questions that Ken asked.

Maybe she had but her words seemed choked.

“Daphne was right after all..”

“What does it got to do with Daphne?”
Janice seem shocked.

“Did I ever tell you why we broke up?”

“No.. you didn’t…”

“Daphne said she wasn’t the one who loved me the most.. and she’s wasn’t the one whom I loved the most.”

Janice stopped walking.

She suddenly remembered the words from Daphne after she slapped her.
“Don’t hurt yourself and him anymore..”

Ken too stopped walking.

“What about Mabel? Didn’t she liked you a lot too?”

“Jan, I like Mabel all along but as a good friend, as a good sister. I was very happy that she liked me but when you love someone, you can’t just expect the person to return the favor right?”

Ken continued.

“But Mabel is my best friend, probably the only best friend that I will have this life. How can I do this kinda things to her?”

“Love is between two people. There’s right or wrong about anything.”

“We won’t have a future between us”

“Why not?”

“I don’t know.. I just don’t know…”

“Janice, listen to me. Nobody knows about the future. You are right, we may not last as long as we think.

But that shouldn’t stop us from beginning right?

At least it’s better than we never had the option to choose from beginning.”

Ken looked at the clear sky.

“Janice, you know.. we are not as young as we used to.”

Ken went on to hold her hand with his.

“Can we celebrate Valentine’s day like this every year?”

Janice was speechless..
This was something that she had always wished for the last 11 years.
She looked at Ken.

“Ken, can you promise me something?”

“To love you forever and forever?”

“Nope, I want you to hand write me a Lover Letter every Valentine’s day from next year onwards… until the day that you die. Even if I would to leave you first, you still have to write and ‘burn’ to me”

“Something like this?”
Ken took out the letter out from his pocket.

It was the letter that Janice had sent 10 years ago..

Janice hugged Ken.

“Yeah… something like that… “

And so it begins, a love story itself unfolds on Valentine’s day where many couples celebrates. Some would buy rings, flowers and other expensive gifts that they can afford.

What do we really want from Valentine’s day?

It’s may not be something expensive, its may not be something exclusive, it can even be a piece of letter that we’ve hand written and post to our love ones.

Would you write a love letter to your love one next Valentines?
I’m sure you would…

[ Happy Valentine's Day ]

The Meaning of Life

“Remember, if you made a mistake, you simply need to press Ctrl-Z for undo and the software will undo the previous error made”

I think we all know this for sure, but have we ever think that “why can’t life be as easy as the way it seems to be?”

Everyday, we are fed with enough frustration and stress to keep us thinking “life sucks isn’t it?”

So have we ever taken a step backwards or even slow down just to realize that there is obviously a better way to live? Life is the most complex thing that you will ever come across. From creation to end, from existence to extinction.

There’s no explanation yet and there shall be none even till the day that your life ends. As far as we all know life is mystical, we still can’t understand a single bit of it. We are taught things and remembering them and in return teach others and the cycle goes on and on.

Life is made up of memory, that only people who have memories have a life… Sometimes you remember the sad times that made you cried your heart out once, the happy times that you will still smile as you refresh.

Life is made up of experience, you learn about one thing, being shown and taught and you will remember it for a long long time. Though how much we want to remove our past unpleasant experience, we can’t, as it is already a part of Life.

Life is made up of feelings. You cry when you are sad, you fear when you’re alone. You’re relieved when everything’s over.

Life is made up of caring and sharing with others. Admit it, helping others makes your day no matter how tired you are. Even a simple a pat on the back of a tired man can stir enough energy to last him to finish his task.

Life is made up of Love. “People who lived without loving is never considered to have lived before” Love is the affectionate feelings developed between mutual parties through time, experience and memories unifies in one.

Life is You. Though there’s no spiritual prove, You are in control of your life.

You can end it anytime, prolong it anytime, enjoy it anytime and love it anytime. If the day comes when you realize that you want to end your life once and for all due to some unhappy memories, unpleasant experience.

Read this passage and think one more time from the beginning before you made any mistake. Tell yourself that ending a life is something cannot be retrieve by simply keying Ctrl-Z.

Won’t it be better that you live through all the bad times and show others how good you are when the time comes for you to give advise?

“Though life sucks, living a rotten life leads to a fulfilling future, not because you lived through it, but you’ve overcome it…”

Anntonii Lim

{ 雨の天使 }

Rain Angel

Chapter 2
[ The Rain that hurt me ]

I hate rain.
I hate the feeling of being isolated in a enclosure when it rains.
I hate myself most of the time.
Because I'm not happy.
I'm not happy when it rains.
Why does it have to rain when I'm not happy?
I hate rain.. & myself.

“Ti... Ti... Ti...”
The melody of the mobile phone sounded across the empty room.
Vibrations trembles through the floor below the bed.

“Argh....”
Wilson woke up finding himself with spinning headache.
He couldn't remember whatever happened a few hours ago.

“You shouldn't mixed 7 types of liquor together in a glass”
All he could remember was being dead drunk outside the club where he worked.

As a bartender, his job is not only mixing the drinks but also mixing with the sophisticated people that surrounds him.
The crowd was cheering him on as there was a challenge from one of the regulars who frequent the club.

“Winners, get to keep the $500?” Challenger declared.
“Any amount is welcomed,” Wilson thought as he finished his first glass with ease.
There was tense competition among the two until the 8th glass where both of them starts to sober.

Wilson held on till the 10th glass when his challenger fell to the glass that he mixed.
Wilson had won and it's not as if he had not won before.

It was raining as Wilson walked out of the club.
He was trying to balance himself while walking down the street drenched.

“Stupid rain! Everyday rain!Rain all you want!”
Wilson shouted as he pointed to the sky.

The last thing he remembered before he past out was making a phone call to wendy.
“Wen... it's me Wil..”
“Wil... ? Wilson? Do you have anything important now? At this hour?”
“Wen, I don't think I can make it home, I'm at Kuoz's”
and he just collapsed.

“Did Wendy pick me up last night?”
Wilson picked up her mobile. It was 6.30am.. It read 7 missed and a short message.

The message read.
“Wil, We have to break up.. He already know...”
Wilson dialed her phone number.

“Hello....? Wil?”
“Yeah its me...” Wilson holding his head.
“Hello.. Hello?? Wilson is that you? Can you speak up?”
“Wendy it's me, can you hear me??” Wilson tried.
“Hello??? Wilson??”
Wilson slammed the phone at the floor. It was probably damaged last night.

“That's the reason why I always hate the rain”

Wilson cursed as he make his way downstairs.

He wandered a few blocks before finally found a telephone booth in the park.
“Hello Wendy?”
Wilson tried desperately reaching her.

“Wilson.. what happen??”
Wendy asked.

“I guess my phone was damaged last night.. anyway thanks for bringing me home”
“Wilson.. listen to me..... I think we need to end our relationship”

“Why?? What happened? Tell me Wendy?”
“He knew about us, all along...”

“Hang on Wendy... “

“Want to come in?”

Wilson opened the telephone booth door as he saw a girl half drenched trying to hide from the rain.

“Yes please~ only a while.. The rain is really too big. Thanks”
The girl looked at him as he continue his conversion. She had tried not to get too close up to him to give him some privacy in appreciation for his kindness.

“So what's going to happen between us?”
Wilson responded.

“Wilson, I don't know.. please don't ask me this question”

“Wen, you'll leave him because of me?”

“No I don't think so....”

“You won't? Then what do you regard me as all the time?”
“Your Toy?????” Wilson raised his voice.

“But he's my husband!”

Wendy too raised her voice with sounds of running nose.

“Have you ever spare a thought for me? Why am I living in the shadows of him?”

“You are not living in the shadows of him, I love you...as you are”

“I worked 4 jobs for you... you know that? I've never ask from you anything, I've given you everything that I have and I'm worthless compared to him?”
Wilson seems unable to control himself.

“Wilson, please get a hold of yourself. I already told you that both of us will not have a future.”

Wilson saw the girl trying very hard to squeeze herself towards one corner.

“Wendy, you know I love you very much....”

Wilson softened as he calm down.

“Wil, I love you too.. but this is my husband we're talking. How can I leave him for you?”
Wendy pleaded.

“It's ok if you don't love me... I don't suppose we will ever see each other again”

“Wait.. what do you mean by that?? We can still meet up in future.."

“No.. you will never see me again..”

Wilson suddenly noticed the girl had been looking at him.

He looked back.

“I'm going to kill myself....”

and he put down the receiver.

[To be Cont]

@}--- Rain Angel ---{@

---{ Prologue }---

The clouds gathered, the sky darkens, the wind begins to blow.
People hurried their way to the shelters while many others begin keeping their clothes from the sunshine.

Soon the sky turns completely dark.
No this isn't night time as lightning and soon thunder roared across the Northern sky.
'tap..'
The first drop of rain touched the ground.

'tap.. tap tap... tap'
The rest follows.
Soon everything was covered with wetness upon.
The world is taking it's well deserved bath as the rain washes away the dirt from mother nature.
No one ever bothers why it rains,
maybe it's to fill up the water that we drank,
maybe it's to give a car a good wash.

Maybe it's because someone is crying?

Chapter 1

[ The Rain that made us met]

Can you smell rain?
I do sometimes.
Its like the smell of the ground heated & moisturized.
Most of the time, the rain comes after the smell...

Mavis looked up to the sky and turned to her mother who was busily packing the vegetables at the wet market.

“Ma.. ”
There was no response.

“I don't think there will be a lot of customers today”
Mavis's mother looked up,walked over and knuckled her head.

“Choi!Choi! Choi! stupid girl, don't curse the business before it starts”
“But Ma... it's going to rain already. Everyone will sleep late when it rains.”

“How do you know?”

“Really, it will rain soon... then when they woke up late, they will go to supermarket and buy their vegetables and not in our wet market.”

“If there's no business, then you no need to go to school already”
“Really? I can skip school and find a job? I don't like school anyway”
Mavis pondered.

“You wish long long, it's already 6.30am. You better go home and prepare for school.”
“Your father and I will be able to manage the stall”

“Yeah Ah girl, you better go. Wait late for school will deduct your exams mark”
Mavis's father agreed along.

“If you don't do well in your exams then better go jump down so that we can claim insurance!!”
Mavis's mother screamed at the top of her voice.

“Ok, ok I'm going now”
Mavis put down the carrots.

Mavis rushed back to her 2 roomed flat.
It was small & crampy as Mavis tried to navigate through the baskets of unsold vegetables.
Some of them were packed neatly at the kitchen area..
There was only 1 bedroom and Mavis's parent asked her to use the room for her convenience of revision.
The two of them put up to sleep on mattress in the living room.
Mavis put on her school uniform and looked at the mirror.
She's 18 this year. Its the A level's.
If she do well, she might get a sponsorship to allow her to study for University.
If she don't, she will have to spend the rest of her life as a factory operator as proposed by her mother.

“Ok I will try my best this year!”
Mavis showed her victory sign to herself as a point of self motivation.
As Mavis left her house, she looked at the sky again..

“Am I wrong this time? It's not going to rain? Then I no need to bring the umbrella”
Mavis dashed through the neighborhood as she looked at her watch.
“duh... at this rate I may be late..I think I will take the shortcut”
There was a park across the housing blocks.

Mavis's plan was to cut through the park and through to the side gates which will close later than the main.

Halfway through the movement, the sky poured like no tomorrow.
“Argghhhhhhhhhh!! See... I was right its going to rain...”

Mavis was running aimlessly as there was no shelter in her eye view.
She continue to run in one direction hoping to spot some shelter.
Then she saw a telephone booth.

“Great! Lucky me”
Mavis thought as she ran towards it half drenched.
To her horror, the telephone was occupied and she just stood outside trying to cover herself with her files and books.

“Want to come in?”
The telephone booth opened.
“Yes please~ only a while.. The rain is really too big. Thanks”
Mavis looked at the origin of the voice. It came from a tall guy.

As she dried herself at the booth, the man continue his conversion on the phone.
As much as she didn't want to hear but there was just too little space of privacy.

“So what's going to happen between us?”
“Will you leave him because of me?”

“You won't? Then what do you regard me as all the time?”
“Your Toy?????”

The voice grew louder.

“Have you ever spare a thought for me? Why am I living in the shadows of him?”
“I worked 4 jobs for you... you know that? I've never about anything, I've given you everything that I have and I'm worthless compared to him?”

The man seems unable to control himself.
Mavis can only try to squeeze herself towards one corner.

“Wendy, you know I love you very much....”
The voice softened. The man seems to calm down.
“It's ok if you don't love me... I don't suppose we will ever see each other again”
“No.. you will never see me again..”

Mavis suddenly turned to look at the man.
The man looked back..

“I'm going to kill myself....”
The man put down the receiver.

[To be Cont]