[Anntonii's AutoBiography]

[In the Beginning]

I was born in the mist close to midnight on Nov 22nd 1978...around 10.31pm, which basically makes me a half scropio & sagittarus according to different calenders.
I grow up in a close knitted family, living with apart with my parents, my 2 uncles, 1 aunt & my grandparents.

Being the only child in the family, I was quite spoilt by my uncles & grandparents as they would try their best to make me happy.

[My Kindergarden Days]

Being brought up in a dialect speaking family, I know nuts about English and my first english word is almost same with everyone else.. "A for Apple"...
During my kindergarden days, I was kinda talkative in class and would always be "punished" for
not doing my work.

My first drawing of a person.. remains a mystery till today on why I colored his face black...
I don't remember any of my kindergarden classmates anymore even if I would to see them in the same bus..

I remembered asking my mum a question.. "Do Trees talk?"
"I suppose trees talk by moving their branches..." Trees are afterall a living thing like us, shouldn't they talk to each other? shouldn't they make friends like us? Questions like these would lead to no answers I suppose.. but this remains a interesting of my childhood...

Anntonii

Was wondering what to write in my blog lately....
Who's going to read about what i wrote? [Nobody I suppose]
What's there to write about? [My life's never been satisfying anyway..]

Well, and so I suppose that [Nobody reads] my blog and [my life's sux] so far...
so might as well write something about my life...

So as to keep some of my memories inside this little cyberspace...

[- True Love -]

True love comes straight from the heart not the mind. It starts with a simple meeting with two people, from the first conversation comes the mutual respect. Soon, without realizing it, there’s a feeling of likeness in the air. From likeness, it gradually grows to love. But true love does not end here.
From love, there’s commitment. The feeling stop you from starting any other possible cases of likeness with other people. The same feeling which get you back to the same person whom you have been sharing your life with.
Many people never went to the stage of commitment, only to blame themselves later for never experiencing true love. If loving is easy, living your hectic life would be easier.
Stories of love are being shared among us everyday, yet there aren’t many of which we can remember. A love story comes from your own experience, not something that you’ve heard or seen. If there is one love story that you can ever remember in your life, it would be something that you had gone through..
True love is a gift. Though finding it may be hard, keeping it is harder than anyone can imagine. We struggle through all our life in search of it, yet when we find it, it just disappear. Just like sand sipping your hands, never to return again.
True love means happiness for your partner even if it means sufferings for you. As much as we would want to deny it, we do sacrifice for love. A simple give in during a heated argument can prevent harsh words being used and breaking of hearts. So next time when you think your partner is unreasonable, think again. You could make he/she less annoyed by giving in just this once. You may give in many, many times in your relationship but at least you know its worth the effort when the storm is over.
True love will be tested one day, only then the declaration for one another is truthful. Temptations will always be there, there will always be someone nicer, younger or more beautiful than your current one. Only will that day tell your truthfulness towards your heart and your soul.
The pureness of True Love is one thing that keeps people going, throughout their life. The simplest things that you do for her will get happiness in return. One sad thing about the pureness of True Love is the existence of temptation. Whether is it materialism or lust, people always find themselves stuck in a situation and therefore love died down in time…
As far as I can see, we all yearn for that simple undying love that rumors to exist. Its out there somewhere, clouded by the deceiving facts of life and overshadowed by the logical mindset of humans.
True Love exists deep down our hearts…

Weather seems to affect one's mood.

Today's gloomy weather has once again slacken quite a few of our minds as we dragged through the long day ahead. Not long ago, we were complaining about how hot the weather is these days.. and now we are complaining about the rain..
When will we be ever satisfied with what we have given?

You don't need to watch "The day after tomorrow" to know our Earth is dying..
But it won't happen in your lifetime.. so why bothers..
This seems to be the answer on everyone's lips.

Whatever it is.. Earth will still die one day.. but hopefully not today...

Anntonii

A brand new day in life means a new beginning..
yesterday's achievements will be remembered,
yesterday's arguement will be forgotten.
tomorrow's success will be based on today
tomorrow's problems will also be determined on today.

The choronics of life will move on, nothing has changed from the past..
maybe except our age as time passes.. and our thoughts...

Anntonii

- Rejection from her -

- Towards the Infinite Sadness of life –

The world never seems to stop turning, time never seems to take notice on someone who’s struggling through life. Bearing each day with the hopes of being reached by the one he loved, the one he used to care for so much.. How he find life so meaningless and lonely now as he begins each day wondering how would it be if he had done the right thing? The people who used to stand by him weren’t there anymore as he continues his journey to the undiscovered path of life. He falls easily, finding it hard to get up…for he’s alone now…
As he slowly pick himself up upon his feet, time never waits, passing every minute with uncertainty that he will end the same day without being tortured by fate. The self belief and his confidence are all gone now….
Finally he told himself not to care for anyone else again, for he knows no matter how much he cared , no one will be there for him again…. as he head towards the infinite sadness of life…...


- Towards the Path of Infinite Sadness and Mental Destruction of Life -


“Everything aren’t the same without the presence of you….”


Life is not about achievements but the efforts towards success. Many people give up after failures but they never look back to their mistakes. If Love is easy, people would abuse its presence and soon, it will just fade away. Sadness is only used an excuse to be left alone. Loneliness is the beginning of self-discovery as you begin to understand more and more of yourself. No one in this world will fully understand you except yourself, accept the way life is being unfolded and indeed life will be fruitful after all.
Believing may just be one of the most powerful words that man had ever created. Believe in your heart when your mind starts to wonder, believe in yourself when you have non to ponder.
Love is the affectionate feelings develop by 2 mutual parties over time, memories, feelings and experience unify as one. Believe in love and you will be given the greatest gift of all… love in return…..