Anntonii introducing a new writer for this blog.

Her penned name is Shan.

Her works revolved a lot in Korean drama series so names of characters and background setting may be in Korea. Guess people who liked Korean drama series will find her stories very much appealing to you. For those who know her, rest assure that I've obtained her permission and help to be in collaboration. I will scout for more writers who are willing to be involved in this blog.

If you know of anyone or yourself that is willing to share your works in my blog, do drop an email to me anntonii@hotmail.com.

You can view her story at

http://love-memo.blogspot.com/

Stay tune for more of her works to come.

Book of Love 爱神の书


Chapter 17



You have known her for a long time. You know all about her, her ex-boyfriends and even the guy she’s currently dating.

You are her number one buddy, someone whom she would share everything with you. Her darkest secrets, her first kiss and all the moments that she cried you would be there for her.

Was it purely friendship? That made you came out of your house in the middle of the night just because she wanted someone to talk to after a tussle with her boyfriend.

How ironic, as it took you a long time to realize she’s actually the one you are looking for after all these years.

You waited and waited, until she is finally single.
You finally found the courage that was hiding deep inside you.
You tell her about your feelings one day.

She told you she is tired about having another relationship.
She thinks you are a nice person, someone who can take care of her.
Unfortunately you weren’t someone in the mold of her dream.

The long road is almost unbearable. The world never seems to stop turning, time never seems to take notice on someone who’s struggling through life.

Bearing each day with the hopes of being reached by the one you loved, the one you used to care for so much..

How you find life so meaningless and lonely now as you begin each day wondering how would it be if you had done the right thing?

The people who used to stand by you weren’t there anymore as you continue this journey to the undiscovered path of life. You fall easily, finding it hard to get up…for you are alone now…

As you slowly pick yourself up upon your feet, time never waits, passing every minute with uncertainty that you will end the same day without being tortured by fate. The self belief and his confidence are all gone now….

Finally you told yourself not to care for anyone else again, for you knows no matter how much you cared , no one will be there for you again…. as you head towards the infinite sadness of life…... Towards the path of infinite sadness and mental destruction of life

“Everything aren’t the same without the presence of you….”




Mark went back to office on Tuesday morning.
The journey to office was a lack lusted affair as he knew it would take a week more before he could see Jade again. Something inside him stopped him from sending a message to Jade.

Hopefully this time she will be back in her usual self.

“Yo bro, how was your extended weekend man!”
Shaun taunted Mark for an answer as he came to his desk.

“My weekend is the same as every weekend. No difference.”
Mark cut the small talk as his boss walked towards his table.

“Mark, come into my office at 1100.”
He ordered.

Shaun tilted his head to Mark and showed him the cut throat signal.

“What happened?”
Shaun whispered.

Mark just shook his head. He guess it was another round of complains about something went wrong.

Time seems to go very slow when you know you are heading for some form of punishment. Mark had to endure the anxiety for 2 hours before it arrived.

Mark knocked on the door and went in. He was quite surprise to see Christine inside too.

“Mark, take a seat.”

Mark sat as his heart sank, “What did I do wrong this time? Was it over the late submission of presentation?”

Then all his wildly thoughts shattered when his boss spoke.

“Mark, how long have you been in my team?”

“More than 2 years, Mr. Lee”

“What do you think of yourself, your contribution to the team?”

“I think there’s more things I can do, more areas which I can improve. There are some bad habits which I have to kick away.”

“Good… glad you know yourself well..”
His boss leaned back to his chair.

“Damn.. Don’t tell me he’s going to transfer me away?”
Mark felt a hunch about the things to come.

“There’s an exhibition going on in Shanghai this week. All our competitors and potential customers will be there. I want you to go with Christine. Both of you will be in charge for an on stage presentation of our latest range of products this weekend.”

Christine looked at Mark and smile.

“But Boss.. Why me?”

Mr. Lee was rather shocked by the question.

“Well… I managed to convince my boss to let us do the presentation rather than the Sales team. You can say it’s getting some limelight for the team if both of you done well.”

He paused.

“As for why were you selected, I would want to let you know that you know how to handle situations based on my past experience with you. No doubt there are areas which you need to improve, Christine will be the best mentor to guide this time round.”

“Thanks boss.”
Mark felt his acceptance.

“The two of you can take the rest of the day off, go home and pack up. The flight is tonight then you will link up with the rest of the folks who are already there. Please do a good job, any questions?”

“Boss, any rest and relax sessions after the trip?”
Mark looked at his boss eagerly.

Mr. Lee’s eye brown frowned.

“Boss, He’s only joking, right Mark?”
Christine’s lightning reflexes saved him as she dragged him out of the office.

“Hey Mark, I’m going to settle the air tickets and some paperwork”
Christine told Mark as they head back to their desk.

“Ok…”

“So where are you guys going for lunch?”

“I don’t know, it’s always decided by Shaun.”

“Ok then… see you tonight at the airport.”

Mark reached home after lunch.
After telling his mother about the trip, he then went on to pack up and had a rest.

After dinner, Mark switched on his computer for one last entry into his blog before the trip.

“Today I finally felt the appreciation from my boss as I’ve been assigned to go for a business trip. Hopefully I will not screw this up and thankfully Chris is going along. She’s always there when I screwed up.”

Mark posted his entry and began surfing the web for the places of interests in Shanghai.

Then he switched back to his blog to have a one last look right before switching off.

There was already a tag in his tagboard.

“You will gain more than you ever expected from this trip”

It was written by Psyche.

“What is she saying? Was it words of encouragement? Hmmm…. Never mind. I never seem to understand her as much as she understands me.”

Mark then switched off his computer.

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“Hey you are really early.”
Christine arrived at the airport.

“Yeah.. Guess I’m pretty much excited about the trip.”

“Hey… we are going for a business trip; don’t expect a tour or something. We have to conference with boss every morning and evening to report the status. I suppose we even have to work through the night for our presentation.”

Mark nodded.

“Ok..”

“Now, let’s check in”
Christine suggested.

Before they move, Christine felt someone calling her.

“Hey Chris, Christine Tan!”

She turned and saw a guy walking towards her direction.

“Brandon? Is it you? Oh my god! It’s really you.”
Christine walked towards the guy and hugged him as Mark looked on.

“Yeah it’s me alright.. So how’s life been for you?”

“Life’s great for me. Where are you heading?”
Christine joyfully replied.

“I’m heading back to Sydney. I just came here for a short trip to see my parents. I’ve got a job and house back there already.”

Then Brandon looked at Mark and smiled.

Mark awkwardly smiled back.

“Oh I see… Life sure is great for you… So where are you guys heading for your honeymoon?”
“Honeymoon? Give us a break man! This is my colleague Mark, we are on our way to Shanghai for a presentation.”
Christine quickly responded.

“Really? Gosh… both of you are really compatible. Sorry for being rude or something.”

Mark just smiled again as Christine hurried Brandon off.

“You better get going, I’ll give you a ring when I’m done ok?”

“Alright, bye dear.”

Brandon gave Christine a hug before he walked off.

The two of them then checked in and got on the plane.

“You sure have a funny friend.”
Mark tried to strike a conversation.

Christine didn’t respond as she looked at the window.

Mark felt the ambience wasn’t correct so he kept quiet throughout the take off. Christine wasn’t her usual self right after she saw Brandon.
It was only midway through the flight then Christine finally spoke.

“Brandon was my first love.”

[To be Cont]

Book of Love 爱神の书



Chapter 16


You’ve known him for a period of time. He’s a cheerful guy who never stops making you happy. You feel he’s going to be the right guy for you. You don’t want to let this chance slip away into the hands of other predators prowling.

You find one good day, arrange a good setup for a 4 coursed dinner.
Despite the rejection of your female buddies, you still decided to go for it.

Then when the moment comes, you expressed your thoughts to him.

He looked at you, smile and later laugh it out loud. He treats it like a big surprise that hits him hard and tries to ignore the fact that you had always liked him. He finds tons and tons of excuses to avoid the start of the topic that he knew it would be pointless.

You felt down, cried at times knowing that life was at your lowest at this point. You felt as if the world begins to turn their backs on you. You used to remember, he was the one whom you needed when you were in doubt, and he was the one who pull you up when you’re down. These images may not happen again.

Now you asked yourself “ Is there anything wrong in telling the person you like that you like him? “ why must it always happen to you… why can’t you be with the one you loved most.
The time is way past midnight, you find that sleeping isn’t that easy anymore, tossing and turning on your bed is getting frustrating. You try to get up, sit back and think of the past relationships you had.

Some were meaningful, some were tragic, but in all of them, you had always put your true feelings and treasure each and every moment. You try to work, hoping that you won’t think of him that often...

But then again, the more you don’t want to think of him, the more of his images appeared in front of your mind. You then took up drinking, trying every means and ways to immune yourself but every morning all you’ll get is hangover and make your life worse.
You finally asked yourself

“Is it worth it? To feel so miserable over him?”




Mark was rather surprised that Sharon had already chance upon his blog.

He returned the tag.

“Ironically, I won’t know whether I’m in love with someone until the day I lose her. When two persons are together, they see each other everyday, it then becomes a norm.

The relationship will roll become going out for shopping trips, catching the latest movie and to go for a getaway holiday.

Slowly it becomes a habit… to see her everyday.

But you won’t know if you are seriously in love with her or simply need her because of your habit… until she left you.

This is when you know you are in love.”

Sharon replied.

“I don’t know whether I’m in love now.”

“You will know it one day; hopefully the person is still there when you realized it.”

“Hopefully…”

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Mark spent the rest of his weekend at the hospital. He knew Jade would be alone if he didn’t. He continued to bring the soups for her and bought a few books to kill her boredom.

Jade did get better after a few days of rest but her words became lesser after that night. The conversations they had were merely a yes-no question and answer session over the weather and some current affairs heard over the news.

Jade would sometimes stare at the book without reading. Then her tears will flow. Mark could only wipe off the tears for her every time he sees this.

There was so much he wanted to tell her.
To ask her to stop thinking about the past that was already over.
To ask her to think in a more rational way.
So what if she had kept the baby? Will it do more harm than good?
Will the baby grow like normal children?

But every time Mark took a step back, the relationship between them was not as close as he thought.

The only thing he could do was to wipe away her tears and hope that one day it will stop flowing.

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Jade was due for discharged on Monday afternoon after the doctors were satisfied that she was well enough.

Mark sent a sms to Christine to apply for urgent leave before he left his house to pick Jade.

“Are you ok? Need any help over anything?”
The reply came almost immediately.

Mark didn’t reply her as there was nothing she could do except to stop asking about why he had to take leave.

As Mark was dealing with the discharging paper works, one of the staff nurse approached Mark.

“Sir, we are all sorry over the incident for Ms Jade and the child. She needs you the most during this period. No doubt she will throw a lot tantrum but she needs all the attention you can give.”

Mark wanted to clear the misunderstanding; that he was not her husband after all. Somehow He decided not to, simply because it will only stir more unnecessary queries.

Some misunderstandings are better kept unexplained.

Jade was discharged on Monday afternoon and was given 5 days of medical rest.

Mark sent her home via a cab to Bukit Batok. Jade’s mother was very happy when she opened the door but her happiness was rather short-lived.

“Jade, what happen to you? Why do you look so pale? Something happened to you?”

Mark tried to cut into the conversation.

“Ehh.. Auntie, you don’t know. Though our conference lasted few days but we had to rush through the night to get our packages done. Jade already had two sleepless night already! Of course she will look pale!”

“Wah… nowadays company really make you worked like a dog.”
Jade’s mother helped carry her stuffs in.

Jade just walked into her room and close the door behind her.

Mark was left standing in the living room with Jade’s mother.

“Yeah Auntie but our company is not bad too. They give us a week’s off so we’ll only need to go back office next Monday”

“Ok.. That sounds better. Let me get you something to drink.”

Jade’s mother turned and walked her way to the kitchen.

The two of them had a small talk over Jade. Jade’s mother was more curious about Jade’s working environment and colleagues. Mark can only base on his accounting friend’s experiences on the good and bad sides of work place.

Then Mark asked Jade’s mother,

“Auntie, you know Jade’s boyfriend Don very well?”

Jade’s mother was not prepared for this question as she was quite taken aback. She paused for awhile before continuing.

“Don and Jade knew each other since primary school. Don used to live opposite block of us and he would go to school with her everyday. I don’t know whether it was fate or simply a joke from heavens that both of them had to go through the same primary, secondary and junior college together.”


“Jade was so in love in him that she waited for him to finish his National Service before enrolling for university together.”

“Wow Auntie… that really makes the script for a soap opera.”

Jade’s mother took a sip.

“Although my girl is very quiet and sometimes people complained about her lack of interest in enjoying life, Jade is a cheerful person every time she is with Don”

“They even planned for marriage two years from now. Then not long ago, Jade came home very late one night. I waited for her, her eyes were swollen. I knew something was wrong.”

Mark looked into his cup.

“You know, all mothers carry a special bond with their child. They can sense the happiness and sorrows that you carry in you. You know you are sick or not.

You are not in your mother’s womb for ten months for nothing you know. You ate what she ate, you drank what she drank.

However as her child grows up and face problems of their own, there are times when the mother can only watch. Because her child had display a “Do not bother me as I’ve already grown up” signal.

Boys will want their ego, girls will want their privacy. This is something that mothers have to live with. We can only pray that they will overcome their problems themselves.

I know my girl is very sad now. I suppose her relationship with Don is already over. I choose not to ask, I prefer to let her hug me and tell me one day.”

Mark’s eyes were reddened by this.

Their conversation halted when they heard the sound of door closed from Jade’s room.

Jade had been listening to them.


“Auntie, I guess I’ll be going. It’s late and I need to go home for dinner”

Mark reached home and found his mother cooking at the kitchen. He looked at her from afar. She had really aged over the years. The wrinkles surrounding her eyes had made her eyes looked smaller.

When was the last time he had a proper look at her?

“Ma, I’m home.”
Mark said.

Mark’s mother turned and smile.
“Ok, dinner will be served shortly.”

“Thanks Ma”
Mark went over to give his mother a hug.

“Thank what? The soup? Aiyah she’s your colleague mah.”

“Not only that, thanks for everything.”

Mark felt like a 10 year old boy for that minute that he hugged his mother. There was so much that he wanted to tell her, his sorrows that buried deep within him.

He hoped someone knew what he had gone through.

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Mark took a walk in the park after dinner. He looked up the skies and found the Orion’s belt. The three stars were shining as always signifying eternity.

When he reached home, Mark went to his bed as he was really tired.
Physically and emotionally.

Before he fell asleep, his phone trembled.

There was an incoming sms.
The incoming number was an unfamiliar one.

“Don’t worry about me, I will be strong. I had told her everything and had a good crying session with her. If fate permits, we might just see each other again on MRT next week? Jade.”


[To be Cont]

Book of Love 爱神の书


Chapter 15



Everyone has a secret deep inside their heart.
It may be a one-sided affair you’ve developed you first know that person. That someone whom you liked the very first moment you saw him/her.

You began to look forward to see the one you secretly admire.
Is he happy today? Is she prettier than yesterday?

Then you asked yourself,
“When are you going to let the person know your feelings?”

You paused and hesitated because you don’t know how that person will react when you confess. You didn’t have the confidence that you will be loved as much.

Will it spur the end of a beautiful friendship?
That person might not talk to you again.
Something you cherish and meant a lot to you.

You secretly looked at the person again.
You decided not to let him/her know about your feelings.
You decide to keep in all within yourself.
Nobody other than you will know of this tiny secret.

You literally tore open your heart and dug deep, very deep.
To find a place deep inside your heart and keep this secret forever.
Safely locked till eternity.

Then you realized that person too have someone in mind.
You felt hurt when that person came for your advice because you were his/her best opposite sex friend.

You realized that the most hurtful in the world is to help that person you secretly loved to chase after someone he/she likes.

Every time you see the both of them together, you will feel as if the whole is currently crushing on you.

You even cried in the night, when you are all alone and there’s no one there to comfort you.


You tried to hide yourself from that person because you are afraid that one day you might just cry in front of him/her.

The saddest part comes when you finally learned that both of them are together. You have to act as if nothing happened as the both of them behaving sweetly in front of you.

All the tears dried, your heart broken and slowly healed.

And finally you tell yourself in the mist of pain and heartache,
“What will happen if you had confessed? Will the two of you be together?”

This is Love, Secretly and Sadly.





Mark returned to his home to take a shower.
Then he approached his mum.

“Ma, do you how to cook fish soup?”

His mother looked at him awkwardly.

“What happened? Why do you need to drink fish soup all the sudden?”

“Ohh… eh.. One of my colleagues just had an operation. So I was hoping can bring her some soup to strengthen her body.”

His mother’s eyes glow with excitement.

“Oh.. It’s a girl? Who’s she? How old is she? Where she lives?”

Mark stared at her.

“It’s not what you think it is, just cook for me can?”

“Ok.. Ok, so much for asking”
Mark’s mother took out some fish from the fridge and start preparing.

Mark took a shower and lay on his bed for awhile.
He only realized it was late afternoon when his mother knocked on his door.

“The soup is ready”

“Ok, thanks mum”

“How long is she staying in hospital?”
His mother was curious.

“I don’t know, I guess will be 3-4days”
Mark shrugged.

“Ok, then tomorrow I will cook chicken soup, then the next day will be lotus seed with ginseng.. Maybe bird nest is a good idea too”

Mark’s mother mumbled to herself as she went into the kitchen again.

Mark changed and made his way to the hospital.

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When he reached the ward, he found Jade staring at the ceiling.

“If you concentrate harder, the ceiling might just be able to fall off”

Mark literally poked her as he put her stuffs on top of the small cabinet.

Jade turned to look at him.

“Oh… its you. So did my Mum say anything?”

“She said I’m handsome, whatever she said before and after that sentence I don’t quite remember already.”

Jade turned her attention back to the ceiling.

Mark took out the container from his bag.

“Can you drink some? It’s fish soup. Heard it’s very good for people who had just gone through an operation.”

Mark helped Jade up and passed a bowl to her.

Jade just stay expressionless as she held the bowl in her hands.

“Go on.. drink it.. if not will waste my effort”

“You cook this? Well I didn’t know there are guys who can cook. Then I got to try”

Jade began to take a sip.

Mark didn’t bother to explain, he took it as a case of ‘good’ miscommunication. What’s more important is that Jade is willing to drink the soup.

“Wow.. it’s really nice…Thanks… Oh.. Suddenly I feel so hungry.”

Jade finished her bowl of soup within minutes.

“There’s more, take your time”

Mark took her empty bowl and poured more soup.
After her dinner, Jade took a rest.

Mark just sat beside her, looking at her as she sleeps.
Suddenly the thought of his ex-girlfriend appeared out of nowhere.

Mark walked towards the window and looked at the night sky.

“It’s been so long already…”

Then he heard a voice behind him.

“You still here?”

Mark turned around.

“Yeah…”

“Can we go for a walk in the garden below? It’s been so long since I looked at the stars”

“If you think you are well enough to move”
Mark unfolded the wheel chair for her.

The night sky was clear but there were not many stars around to be seen. Maybe all the lights in the city make it difficult for stars to be seen here.


Jade pointed upwards.

“Mark, you heard of the Orion’s belt?”

Mark looked up.

“You mean the three stars that sit side by side? It’s one of the more visible stars in the night sky. I suppose it’s meant for navigation purpose.”

“Yeah… you know why the three stars are there?”

“I don’t know”

Jade looked at him and smiled.

“Let me tell you a story. Long Ago in the ancient times of Rome, there lives a very poor farmer by the name of Heron.

He worked night and day over the fields of grains to harvest food for his family. To him life was so miserable that he never thought he would love someone until the day when the boss came to collect his tax with his daughter, Zoenith.

It was a love at first sight, Heron knew she was the one for him.
Heron then tried so hard to impress his beloved.

He told Zoenith that he will climb up the highest mountain in Rome to catch a falling star in return for her love.

Zoenith did like Heron but due to the strong rejection from her father she could only avoid him.

When she knows he was going to the highest mountain she ran away from home to find him. She finally found him on the cliff of the highest mountain.

The Boss sent many men to search for Heron and wanted his head back for reward they look high and low for this young farmer and finally they reached the tip of the highest mountain.

As they approach, Zoenith begins to plead for their mercy to let Heron go but Heron stood still as he holds Zoenith's hand.

He spoke of real sincerity.

“Knowing you was a blessing but for you to be with me by my side is a miracle indeed let this day not be the day as we are parted but for this day tat we are united even if we were to go through hell together”

Heron tighten his grip of Zoenith's hand as they jump down the cliff together.

Venus then the Goddess of Love saw what happened to the wrecked couple. She understands that there was indeed true love between this young couples.

She then sent a shinning star to fetch them and bring them to the evening sky.

Then on in the nights of Rome, people will see 3 stars.. Heron, Zoenith and the middle star between them which symbolize their Love... “

Jade then paused a while. Then she continued with shivering voice.

“When either one of the stars stops glow the other two will simply die off. This is because their love is not tested by time but will last longer than time.....”

Jade then covered her face.

“Love can be so romantic and yet so dark sometimes. Some people will do anything for the ones they love.”

“Jade, Let’s go back, don’t think so much.. You have to be strong.”

Mark told her as he pushed her up to her ward before he returned home.

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Mark reached home and loosens up for a while before he went online.
He logged in to his blog and posted an entry.

“These two days I realized that Love can be extreme. It can be very romantic yet so hurting. When two persons love each other, they would do anything for each other but when the love died, so will their emotions and feelings.

When will I ever feel this love again?”

Someone left a tag in his tag board.

“When will you know you are in love?”

It was not Psyche this time,

It was Sharon.


[To be Cont]

Book of Love 爱神の书


Chapter 14

From the first crush you’ve developed, the feeling of liking someone becomes very intense. You grew up knowing that it’s always sweet to know there’s someone whom you look forward to everyday.

During secondary school was the age of love discovery as relationships might blossom for the very first time. That’s for those who are fortunate; the rest of us whom are less fortunate will find ourselves secretly liking someone.

What do we know about love at the age of 13?

We knew that when you love someone, you have to do everything for her/him.
If she likes shopping, you would have to love it too.
Then you would have the chance to at least go out with her.
If he likes to cycle, you would have to learn it too.
Then both of you can have the chance to cycle at east coast park.

We knew that we have to dress well as most of the girls have a very sense of fashion.
Color combination is vital when we go out. Pink don’t go with black and you don’t wear yellow & blue straps shirts. Once you go into the wrong book because of your dress sense, it would be very difficult for her to even notice you.

We knew in order for the girl to like you, we must also be accepted by her friends.
Her group of female friends whom she always hung out with.
You have to be nice to everyone she knew so that they will give her the thumbs up.

We knew that it’s always not easy to express ourselves.
We will try to be romantic, writing letters and buying flowers and teddy bears on her birthday. Never mind the little pocket money that remains throughout the month. Saying “I like you” is always not easy and might not always work.

Lastly, we knew that sometimes our guy friends will like her too. Then it’s the battle of guts & looks as the two of you takes on each other. The creativity and romantic book is thrown away as the better looking guy always gets the girl.
So think back about the times when you were young and now.
What were the differences between the meanings of love?

Our definitions of love will change when we grow older, when we gain more experience from relationships, when there are more sadness, when we learn to cry less.

This is Love.






Mark held her tight in his arms.
He didn’t know what to say to her.
He had questions he didn’t dare ask.

“It’s ok, Jade. Everything is fine now”
That was the only sentence that came out as he continued to hug her and pat on her back.

It took awhile before Jade recover from her shock.

“I’m….. Ok now…”
Jade whispered as she leaned on his shoulders.

Mark let go of her.
“I think I can remember how he looks like, let’s call the police”

“No…NO… Please don’t’”
Jade’s emotions came back again.

Mark couldn’t believe it, he knew something was wrong. He just not sure whether it’ was ethically correct to ask as he knew her not long enough.

“He’s your boyfriend?”

Jade shook her head.

“He’s my ex. We broke off a month ago.”

“Then why did he hurt you? I mean I don’t understand.”

“He came to ask me to abort the baby”

“What?~??!! You’re pregnant?”
“Yes.. It was only when we broke off that I realized I missed my mens, did a checkup only known I was pregnant…”

Mark helped her up.

“I don’t I should be asking this but why both of you broke up?”

“I caught him cheating on me. The woman was his colleague”
Jade stopped talking as she covered her mouth.
Tears were flowing.

“He used to love me a lot… We used to go beaches to watch the stars.”

Mark comforted her as he held her.

“Its over, don’t keep on walking in circles. Besides, what makes you want to keep the baby?”

Jade shook his hands off.

“Is this what you men only care about? Something that you’ve done in the moment of pleasure and choose not to live with it? The life inside me is innocent.”

“I’m sorry, I didn’t mean what I say. I just being logical”

Just then Mark realized a stream of blood was flowing down from her blouse.

“What’s that?”

“Oh my god.. It’s blood..”

Mark quickly carried Jade to the road side to hail a cab. Jade started to develop pain in her lower adnominal area on the way to the hospital.
She clings onto Mark with agony and frustration.

“Am I going to lose the baby??”

Jade was put on immediate medical attention at the hospital. Mark can only stay outside the operation theater. Even though there wasn’t going to be any life threatening operations. Waiting outside the theater will get anyone nervous and panicky.

The doctor came out first before the nurse and porter pushed her bed out.

“Sir.. I’m sorry.. But I couldn’t save your child. We had to abort to save the adult. Your wife is very weak now as she lost a lot of blood, we’ll have to ward her for a few days to monitor her health. Please take care of her.”

“I understand..”

The doctor pat on Mark’s back before he left.

Jade was conscience but looked very pale as she continued to cry as she was moved to her ward.
Mark followed her bed.

Jade was transferred to a personal ward. She cuddled to her pillow when the nurses helped her to her bed.

Mark just sits on the chair beside her bed.
There was nothing he could say to make her feel better.
He can only wait for her to calm down.

“You have my belongings with you?”

“Yeah.. It’s with me”

“Can pass me my hand phone?”

“Ok.. Here you go” Mark took her phone out of the bag.

Jade dialed some numbers.

“Hello… Mum?”
Jade tried her best to sound normal despite the operation she had just did.

“Yeah it’s me… Jade”

“I’ll be staying over at colleague’s place tonight, we need to rush for our financial closure. The company is sending us to Taiwan for a few days, my colleague will drop by tomorrow to collect my luggage and passport ok?”

“Ok.. I will..”
Jade hang up the phone.

Then she picked her phone up to key in a sms.
After sending, Jade threw her hand phone towards the wall before covering herself with the blanket.

Mark picked up the phone and saw the message.

“The baby is gone, there’s nothing left between us anymore. I hope you are happy because I’m worse than hell.”

Mark knew she was crying again as he put back her phone near her bed. He didn’t went home that night, he just sat beside her incase she needed someone.

Tiredness won him over and soon he was sound asleep on the couch.

It was morning when he woke up. There was a blanket covering him.
Jade was staring at the ceiling as she laid there motionless.

“Hey… Good morning…”
Mark tried to start a conversation.

Jade turned to him.

“Don’t worry… I’m fine now. Don’t sleep without a blanket in future. Your bones will be weaken by the cold”

“Mark, can you do me a favor?”

“Yes?”

“I don’t want anyone to know about this. I need you to help me pack some clothes and bring my passport out for me?”

Mark nodded.

Jade jot down her address on a piece of paper and pass to Mark.
She lived in Bukit Batok which explains why everyday he sees her.
But Mark could not explain why she preferred to take this route as it’s longer compared to travel from Jurong.

Nevertheless, Mark return to his house before making a move to hers.

A lady opened the door.

“Hi Auntie, I’m Jade’s colleague. I’m here to collect her luggage”
Mark pretended to be cheerful even though he was emotionally sunk in too by this incident.

“Oh.. she called me yesterday. Wah.. I didn’t know Jade got such handsome colleague.. So you single or not?”

Mark just smiled as he entered her flat.

“At least you are better than that Don.”

Jade’s Mum showed him her room.

The design of her room was pretty simple. Definitely not those girly types of room filled with soft toys and huggable stuffs.
Jade’s room was filled with books though. There was a huge shelve filled with books that she had read.

As Mark roams her room, there were a few pictures hanging.
It showed her and another guy hugging looking very happy in the pictures.

One of the scenery attracted Mark’s attention as he had been there too. Then he got a shock when he studied the photo, the photo which Jade took with her boyfriend had Mark and his girlfriend in it too. Mark and his girlfriend’s side view were on the extremely right side of the picture.

Mark just laughed at his discovery. Fate has it that the four of them were actually at the same place at the same time.

Jade’s mum enters the room.

“I’ve packed her stuffs for her. It’s for 4 days right?”

“Yeah.. It shouldn’t be long”

“Ok, by the way. Her passport is at her drawer.”

“Thanks Auntie”
Mark reached for the drawer and found her passport.

There was a black and white photo in the drawer too.
It looked as the setting was in the train.

Mark picked up the photo.


It was him…

[To be Cont]

Book of Love 爱神の书

Chapter 13

Do you still remember the first crush you ever had in your life?
The first time of experiencing mixed emotions, the anxiety and excitement when you saw that person. When that person is happy, you would smile along.

When that person is sad, you would not know what to do to cheer up.
Who was he/she?

Your neighbor? Your childhood playmate? Your classmate?

I believe most of us, if not all us will experience our first crush in our life. We won't realize it until we were much older.
When we finally find a reason to explain why we sometimes blushed out of no reason.

My first crush happened at the age of 10.
She was one of the taller girls in class.

I being the fattest and biggest sized will always partner her during our class.
We would sit side by side during lesson.

We would hold hands when the class is gathered to go to other areas.

We would exchange stationeries and cards. I knew she like pencils a lot so I would give her those extras that I purposely bought.

She would really think that I had extras. It was not something that she could not afford but would not spend her pocket money on.

I like her smile and happiness when she receives my small gifts. We even acted in a play together, being husband and wife at the last year of primary school.

Years passed, we went to the same secondary school and stay in the same class for 2 years before finally separated.

She got prettier as she grew up and had her fair share of male seekers.

As for me, I've never really told her I liked her before. Maybe it's because of this that we've stayed as good friends. Maybe it's because of this that she would still smile at me when she sees me.

And we will always have so much to talk about except my feelings for her.

Mark didn’t have a good sleep that night.

He was tossing and turning over the comments he saw in Sharon’s blog.

No doubt Sharon later explained in her later entries that it was only a joke. She had posted to see if anyone is really concern about her. She certainly has got what she want as there were more than 30 over comments showing concern.

What if it’s not a joke?

What if she really has the intention of killing herself?

What if she killed herself next time?

What can he do to help her?

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The next day was as usual for Mark as he traveled to his office.

As he enters the train, there was no sight of Jade around.

She must have taken leave I suppose”

Mark thought to himself as he sulked all the way to work.

Just as he reached the ground level, someone tapped his shoulder.

It was Christine.

“Hey.. What’s the matter with you? I called you a few times”

“Really?”

“Yeah.. Is something bothering you?”

Christine looked serious.

"Nah it’s just some small thoughts lingering in my head, I will be fine”

Mark replied as they stepped into the lift.

"Oh yeah.. You better be, Boss is very anxious about the presentation later..”

"Presentation?” Mark covered his mouth.

"YEAH? Don’t tell me you didn’t finished the proposal package?”

Christine stared at Mark.

"Shit!! I haven’t”

"Quick, there’s still time. Let’s quickly get it done.”

Christine pulled Mark out of the lift when it reached.

Shaun was again shell shock when he saw Christine pulling Mark in.

"OH my God… Oh my God…” Shaun held his hands to his head.

"Stupid Idiot. Don’t think too much. Want to think, think after the presentation.” Christine quickly went to her desk.

The three of them sped through the morning trying to get the proposal package ready for customer presentation at 11.00am.

Mark’s boss wasn’t very please when he knew it was not ready for his review.

However, Mark managed to finish the proposal package with Christine’s guidance and Shaun’s help in the nick of time.

Mark went in and gave a good presentation to the visiting customers and they applauded him warmly when he finished.

Even Mark boss was surprised with the proposal and couldn’t help but brought out a thumbs-up sign to him.

Christine was standing by his side as Mark winked at her.

Christine was at the pantry when Mark came in.

"Hey thanks.. You’ve help me again” Christine looked at him.

“No worries, Colleagues must help each other mah.. Besides I won’t know when I will need your help.”

“Can I buy you dinner?” Mark suddenly suggested.

“Why?” Christine was rather shocked by the suggestion.

“Because I don’t really like to owe people favors you know”

“Because you are egoistic?” Christine smiled.

“Yeah.. Yeah Whatever.. See you later” Mark walked out of the pantry.

“See you later..” Christine replied softly.

It was Friday evening as the clock continued to tick. .. It was a day of life reborn. When the time hit 6.00pm sharp, all the office staffs in the company had already packed their bags and roaring to go.

“Bro.. you not going off?” Shaun made his way out.

“Nah.. you go ahead.. I got to touch up this proposal and send to boss”

“Ok.. but make sure you don’t end up like our Super-woman there” Shaun pointing to Christine who was still engross in her work.

“Yeah.. you take care man.. enjoy your weekend.”

“You too…” Shaun replied as he left.

Mark stretched himself and checked around. All the staffs had left.

Then he walked over to Christine’s desk.

“So where do you want to go for dinner?”

Christine stopped her work and looked up. “Oh.. it’s still on?”

“Why not?”

“Ok.. Where do you want to go?” Christine started packing.

“Let’s go to East Coast?”

“Wow.. I didn’t know you were such romantic…” Christine cheekily made fun of him.

“No lah… East Coast is Cheaper.. It’s nearing month end.. ” The smile on Christine’s face was gone within seconds.

They hitch a cab and reached East Coast for dinner.

After dinner, Christine decided to go for a walk.

“Arhh… the sea breeze.. You know how long I hadn’t feel the breeze already?”

“You only know about work…”

“Thanks for the dinner anyway, it was really great.”

“It’s still early, you want to go for a drink?” Mark suggested.

“Nah.. I’ve got to go back office tomorrow..”

“But it’s a Saturday!! Get a life!”

“It’s really important…” Christine shrugged her shoulders.

“Then let me send you home?”

“Ok…” The both of them took the bus before changing to train as Christine lived Sengkang.

“You have a good night sleep ok?”

Mark tried to encourage her.

“It’s a wonderful night Mark, thanks” Christine said before the lift door closes.

As Mark walked out of the neighborhood, he heard someone screaming and crying from afar. It sounded like a woman. He took a step closer to find out where the cries were coming from.

“Stop treating me like this!!!” The women cried.

“Shut up bitch, You’ll do as what I say” The man slapped and kicked her.

“Ooi! What are you doing? Police” Mark shouted as he ran forward.

The man ran away in fright.

“Miss.. Miss… are you ok?” Mark tried to hold her up.

She was still covering her head and crying in fright.

“It’s ok now..” Mark held her hands…

The women was still shivering when Mark slowly moving her hands down. Mark looked at the women…

He too got a fright.

She was Jade…

[To be Cont]