{ 雨の天使 }

Rain Angel

Chapter 14

[ It used to rain a lot when we were young ]

“Neh Neh Neh You cannot catch me!”
I jeered at both of them as I ran around the playground.
Ah Wei and KaiLoke had been trying to catch me in our game of ‘catching’.
Been smaller build, it was obviously harder for them to catch.

The market was crowded in the mornings and our parents didn’t have the time to bother with us. All they did was to give us some money for breakfast.

We would run around in the playground as much as any ten year old would do.

Suddenly I stopped.

“It’s going to rain ~ Let’s find a place to hide”
I told the boys.

“How do you know?”
KaiLoke asked me.

“I can smell the rain, it is coming”
I replied.
“Why do we need to hide from the rain?”
Ah Wei looked up the sky.

“Isn’t it amazing that water falls from the sky?”

“Huh…?”
I asked.

“Isn’t that great to feel the water droplets that comes from the sky?”
Ah Wei looked at KaiLoke and me together.

The three of us looked up to the sky.
Soon the raindrops came.

“Close your eyes and feel the rain..”
Ah Wei told us.

The three of us just stood there been drenched by the incoming rain.

“Isn’t this a wonderful feeling?”
Ah Wei asked again.

Neither of us replied, we just enjoyed the moment.
In the end, three of us caught a cold and a lot of scolding from our parents.

I didn’t see Ah Wei since then. But he had taught me something which I’ve never forget
It was then I began to love the rain .…

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Both of them just walked through the park.
There was so much Mavis wanted to ask Wilson.
But despite her greatest effort, she can’t open her lips and asked.

“Loke won’t be too happy if he sees you in this shape”
Wilson started the conversation.

“Orrrh…”
Mavis replied.

“So everyday when we walk our separate ways, you will be heading for the market?”
Mavis asked curiously.

“Yeah, it’s funny sometimes that you always see a person walking on the opposite path of you yet you don’t know where his destination is”
Wilson laughed.

“Then since when you realized you know me and KaiLoke?”
Mavis finally asked.

“Hmmm… well… since the day I saw you in the phone booth”
Wilson smiled.

“But… How do you know it’s me. We didn’t see each other for so long already and why didn’t you tell me you were Ah Wei?”

“Hmmmmm…”
Wilson took pause before replying,
“I knew you were Ah hui because I was the one who drew the portrait”

“You drew it? The portrait at KaiLoke’s house?”

“Cannot meh? I’m a freelance artist you know?”
Wilson teased her.
“That was two years ago already. Unfortunately, he didn’t have the guts to give it to you.”

“KaiLoke liked you since young.. You know that?”

“I.. just knew”
The moment had aroused Mavis’s emotions once more.

“He did a lot things for you but he didn’t dare to tell you. It was more like being a secret admirer who can’t reveal his feelings.”
“I’m Sorry…”

“Sorry for what?”

“Scolding you that day, I said you wouldn’t know the feeling of the death of your best friend. I was wrong… You should have the same hurt as me”

“It’s ok but you slap real hard you know?”
Wilson holding his hand to his cheek.

“Don’t be sad already ok? Life is supposed to be happy right?”

“Yeah.. I know.. Don’t worry I will be happy from now on”

Wilson walked with her all the way until the school gate.
Everything seems stabilized and calm.

“So… the sms which you sent is written by KaiLoke?”

Wilson looked at her and waved goodbye.

“Nope. I wrote it. It was meant for you. ”

Both walk their separate ways.

Mavis turned to make her way to school.
Maybe it was destiny that is trying to crack a joke on her.

“What am I suppose to do?”

“What can I do?”
Time seems to drag when you have a lot of things in your mind.
Mavis didn’t want to think of anything.
She just wants to concentrate on her studies.
Maybe by putting all her energy into studying will help you release all the thoughts that is in her mind.

When you finally decided to do something, time will run faster.

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It was coming to 3 months after KaiLoke had left the world.

Mavis was enjoying herself in school, studying very hard for all the up coming exams and assignments.

Mavis knew what time Wilson will be walking through the park so she make sure that her timing will not clash with his.

They didn’t see each other during these times.

Wilson would send messages to her but Mavis won’t reply them.
She was uncertain of her feelings too.
It was like trying to conceive your feelings for someone.

Sometimes she broke down in the mist of her revision because she couldn’t take it.

Then the sky will drizzle afterwards.

It was as if KaiLoke telling her

“All is fine, don’t worry.. be happy and enjoy life. I will watch over you.”


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Wilson looked outside the window.

It was drizzling outside.

Maybe he was wrong to like the same girl as his best friend.
As much as he wanted to subdue his feelings, he just couldn’t do it.

He looked at the pair of Teru-Bozu that was hanging there ever since the day he got them.

Maybe there was something that he could do.

At the very least…


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“Ah Hui ah…”

“Yes Ma?”
Mavis opened her room.

“Ah Wei asked me to pass this bag to you”

“Oh ok Ma, please go and rest. You are tired for today”

“Don’t worry about me lah, Ah Wei got help us at the stall everyday. He is always carrying all the heavy stuffs for us. He looks thinner day by day. ”

“Ah Wei is such a nice boy, I also don’t know what’s wrong with you. You and KaiLoke weren’t together so what you are worrying?”

“Ma..! I’m only 18 this year! Studies should come first right? Why aren’t you like my classmates’ parents?”

“If you really want to, how can we stop? You are not young anymore, you have to make your own decisions.”

“Ok… Ma… I know I know..”
Mavis hurried her mother out of her room.

Mavis was alone in the room.
She unwrapped the bag.

Out came her pair of Teru-bozu.
It was something she had long forgotten.

Mavis hang the Teru-bozu near her window.
Then she noticed something different about them.

She took a closer look.

One of them had it written “Mavis will pass her A levels with flying colors” which was written by her.

She then realized that the other Teru-bozu had something written on it as well.

“Wilson will love Mavis for as long as he lives…”

[To be Cont]

{ 雨の天使 }

Rain Angel

Chapter 13

[ Life is suppose to be happy when it rains ]

“Why are you not happy, Ah hui?”
Loke came to me one day as I was packing my carrots one day.

“My O levels examinations are coming, I don’t know whether I can do well or not”
I stopped and stared in the blanks again.

Loke show me his hand.
“You know why we have 5 fingers on each hand?”

“I don’t know…How would I know?”

“Because we have five types of problems in our life. Money/Love/Work or studies/Family/Friends”
Loke showed me his hand again.

“Then each type of problems will have their own solutions, that’s why when someone hold your hand, they are indirectly solving your problems”

“Uhu….. then those who got six fingers means they got 6 problems arh?”
I asked Loke back.

“Can you don’t interrupt me for being romantic?”
Loke act like he was some poet.

“Hahahaha”
I just couldn’t control myself.

“See! I’ve made you laugh! Life should be this way!”
I looked at him as he showed me the victory signage.
“Whatever problem we face, there will always be solutions. Life is supposed to be happy!”

“Yeah, Ah Loke you are right! Life is supposed to be happy!”
I remembered the day when I picked up this quote and victory sign ever since.

I will be happy, I promise…






Days past, weeks went.
As much as people always say time heals heartache.
Mavis was trying very hard to get back to her normal self.

Sometimes she would still think of KaiLoke in the morning when she arrange the vegetables.
She would visit his parents when she has the time.

Mavis would help them clean up his room as both his parents want to preserve whatever that is left of him.

She would just sit and stare at her portrait after her clean up.

Mavis looked at her mobile phone.
She did not reply to Wilson since that night when he sent her that sms.
She did not know what he wanted or why he sent to her.

“Maybe he wants to send to his girlfriend but wrongly send to me”
That’s what Mavis want to believe.

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Mavis took the route to the park one day when she went to school.
She was hopping that she will not see him.

Her prayers weren’t answered.

Wilson walked towards her.

“So …How are you?”
Wilson trying to start a conversation.

Mavis didn’t understand why she was so embarrasses in seeing him.
Her heart just keep on accelerating when she sees him.
Her breathing gets stronger.
Her vocals seems stuck.

“I’m fine.. ok already”
Mavis walked past him quickly and made her way to school.

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During lunch , Mavis pulled Hanling one corner.
“Hanling, ask you. When will a girl gets her heartbeat accelerating and cannot control her breath and speech?”

“When she has asthma? What kind of trick question is this? Hahaha”
Hanling laughed out loud.

“No no no.. I mean what will cause her to be like that in front of a guy”

“Well base on my experience, If she’s in love with that guy. She would probably behave like that”

“Sheehss….”
Mavis let out a big sigh

“Mavis… You’re in Love?~!?~? Who Who Who, tell me, tell me”
Hanling just couldn’t stop.

“No one lah! I don’t like anyone”
Mavis walked away with Hanling hot on her heels.

“You are my best friend, best friends no secrets one hor…”

“Nothing…”

“Is it Shawn from next class? Raymond?”

“No one means no one…”
Mavis stormed back to her class.

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Back home, Mavis was revising her work when her mother came in to hang back her clothes.

“Ah Ma.. how is Loke’s parents?”

“They are coping fine. Kaiwen gone back to Australia already to continue his studies”

“Is it? That’s great..”

“They got someone helping them mend their stall also..”

“Eh Ah Hui..”

“Yes Ma?”

“Why I never hear you talk about boyfriend before?”

“What? Ma because I don’t have boyfriend..”

“Then why Hanling said you have?”

“OHhhhhhh… Ma. I don’t have boyfriend.. Don’t listen to her.. Don’t worry”
Mavis was furious with her so call best friend.

“It’s ok, your pa and me not so old fashion.. If you don’t have I recommend you one?
Got handsome man in our market you know?”
Mavis’s mother became another ‘digger’ digging up all her inner secrets.

“Ma, please don’t ask me anymore. I not interested.”
Mavis tried to push her mother out of her room.

“Ok ok, I don’t bother you already”
Mavis’s mother walked out.
“I hope you are not that bother by KaiLoke’s death..”
Mavis’s mother thought as she heads for the kitchen.

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The day was dark as the sun had not rise.
The wet market had begins its operation as hawkers busily arranging their stall.

“Ah hui.. later before you go to school. Can you pass me the keys from the cupboard?
I’ve forgotten to bring them down today”
Mavis’s mother ordered.

“Ok Ma…Its 6.15 already I go hone prepare for school”
Mavis heads home and got herself ready.
Hanling called and ask her to meet at the park as she had bought her breakfast.

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Mavis went to the park and both of them sit down having their breakfast and enjoy the morning sun.
They were having a great day until a familiar voice caught up with them.

“Hey.. so early eat breakfast?”

It was Wilson. Again.

“What’s the problem with you? We can’t have our breakfast here?”
Mavis knew Hanling was still angry with him as she spoke with soreness.
“Can can.. you can do whatever you want”
Wilson smiled at Mavis.

Mavis looked away, making sure that Hanling did not notice they eye contact.

“Let’s go Mavis”
Hanling suddenly got up and pulled her friend off from the bench.

Hanling was taking a lot of big steps and moving very fast dragging Mavis along.

Her eyes were sore with redness.

As they were about to reach school, Mavis suddenly realized that she had forgotten to pass her mother the keys. They will not be able to go home without it.

“Hanling, I got to go back to the market. You go to school first can?”

“Then you’ll be late?..”

“Never mind, you just take notes for me”
Mavis ran back to the market.

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“Ah Wei, pass me that promfret fish over there”

“Ok Auntie, here you go”
Ah Wei pass the fish to the customer.

“Ah Wei, you are such a big help to us ever since Loke left”
KaiLoke’s mother said.

“Don’t worry Auntie, I will help you for as long as you want me”

“Ah Wei ah! Need your help”
Mavis’s mother called from afar.

“Can help us move these stack of vegetables?”

“No problem Auntie~! But you must buy me coffee later”
Ah Wei moved the heavy stack of vegetable with ease.

“Ah Wei, you so young and handsome… got girlfriend or not?”
Ah Wei blushed.

“No lah Auntie.. no one wants me.. hahaha”

“Don’t worry, don’t worry. I introduce my daughter to you lah”

“Wah! Really? Then I call you mother-in-law first!”

Mavis reached the market and found her mother happily chatting with a tall guy.

“Ma… your keys”
Mavis called out as she walks nearer.

“See here is my daughter…”
Mavis’s mother said to Ah Wei.

“I know Auntie, I know your daughter”
Ah Wei turned around…

It was Wilson…

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[To be Cont]

{ 雨の天使 }
Rain Angel

Chapter 12

[ The Angel of Rain ]

“Ah hui… how are you?”
“Loke? KaiLoke? Where are you? How come I cannot see you?”
I don’t know where I am, everywhere was pure white and cloudy.
“Kai Loke where are you?”

“Ah Hui… you won’t be able to see me..”
The voice was really KaiLoke’s.

“KaiLoke, what happened?”
I began to knee down and cry again.
I didn’t know I’m so emotionally drained.

“Don’t cry Ah hui…”
The warm gentling wind blow up to my face.

“Where are you Loke? Why can't I see you? There are so many things to talk about between us”

“If you cry, the Angel of Rain will cry for you too…”
“The Angel of Rain will watch over you forever, I will watch over you, forever…”
“Be strong and live on because life is supposed to be happy….”

“No… Please don’t leave me”
Mavis was trembling on the bed struggling.

Wilson sat beside the bed watching her.
“She must have lost someone very special to her..”

Mavis suddenly woke up.
She realized it was a dream she had.
It didn’t felt a dream. Everything looked so real.
“KaiLoke must be in heavens now..”

“This bed is really soft and comfortable.”
She thought as she lay on the soft bed before.

Mavis suddenly sprung up from the bed.
“Where am I? Whose bed is this??? Whose clothes are this???”

She looked up. Wilson was looking at her.

“Argh!!!!!!!!!!!”
Mavis screamed with pitch that could kill.

Wilson walked over.
“These clothes are my ex-girlfriend’s. You were drenched all over. You were crying and suddenly fainted.. I have to carry you all the way back.”

Mavis slapped him a few times.

“You pervert!! What do you want???”

“Stop it.. Why did you slap me????”
Wilson stunned.

“Why did you change my clothes???? What intentions you have?”

“What intentions I’ve got?? You’ve nothing for me to see in the first place!”
Wilson fired a deadly remark on her.

In the mist of all the quarreling, the bedroom door opened up.

“Ah….The porridge is so hot…”
Hanling came in with a bowl in her hand.

“Hanling?? Why are you here?”
Mavis looked at her friend.

“Why? Because of you! Who ask you to faint all of the sudden”
Hanling put the bowl on the table.

“Hanling… so you were the one who changed out my clothes?”
Mavis lowered her tone.

“Stupid girl…All you know is cry, faint, scream and slap people”
Wilson walked out of the room.

He hoped her friend would be able to calm her down.

“Yeah lah! If not who changed? Wilson? Come to think of it, I feel he’s a real gentleman. At least he called me and asked me for help..”

“I just slapped him a few times just now..”
Mavis sounded remorseful.

“No problem, I wanted to slap him since that night”
Hanling encouraged her friend.

“Hanling… I dream of him just now…”

“Kai Loke?... Poor girl… don’t be too sad. Whatever happen she should not be too bothered about it. It cannot be helped…”
Hanling hugged her.

“I know.. I promise him I will live on happily. He said he will look after me. Well… I think he may actually be the Rain Angel that I’ve always talked about…I know he is.. I hope he is..”
Mavis let out a smile.

“That’s the spirit girl! I know you are sad…. But we should look forward”

“Life is supposed to be happy right?”
Hanling show Mavis her victory sign.

Wilson was standing outside the door.
He let out a smile of relieved. Finally she has the determination to pull herself together.
Wilson looked out his window.
The rain had stopped.

“Loke, I hope she will really get over you…”

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Hanling accompanied Mavis to her void deck before she heads home herself.

“Ah hui, where did you go?”
Mavis’s mother looked at her tired daughter.

“I went to KaiLoke’s place just now”

“Are you ok? You looked very tired”

“I’m ok, Ma.. I’ve thought it through already..”

Mavis’s mother paused and looked at her daughter again.

“Whose clothes are you wearing?”

“Ohh.. Eh.. They’re Hanling’s. Just now we met up then big rain then we were drenched then I went to her place then she lends me her clothes then…”

“Ok.. ok so many ‘then’”
Mavis’s mother walked into the kitchen.

Mavis let out a sense of relieve. If her mother would to know she had went to a stranger’s place and slept on his bed. God knows what will become of her.

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Night time came as the noisy void deck had died down.
Mavis folded and stacked her ‘new’ clothes into her closet.

She looked up to the clear sky with the half full moon.

“So many things have happened in such a short time.”

It takes a lot of time and a lot of effort to stop thinking of someone.

Mavis took a deep breath and let out a sigh.

“Loke, If you really are the Rain Angel.. please show me a sign, any sign…”

Suddenly raindrops fell down from the sky.
It rained on a clear night sky.. but it only lasted a few minutes..

Mavis fell onto her chair.
She couldn’t believe what she had witness.
But she would want to believe in it, even though she may be the only one who believes in it.
Her heart is finally settled.

“Ah Loke, you don’t worry about me. I will study hard and go to university as promised. I will live a good life. I know when I cry, it will rain. If you really are the Rain Angel, then I cannot hate the rain anymore because it would mean I hate you… “

Mavis started to flip through her revision notes.

“Mavis Guo Mei Hui Ganbatte ne!”

Mavis spent the rest of the night revising through all the lessons that she missed.

As she prepared for bed, her mobile phone beeped.

[Sender : Wilson]

She read on..

“The darken clouds filled the lovely sky,

Thoughts of you ran across my mind..

As the wind began its mighty blow,

Senses of sadness felt across my soul..

Water descends the distance ground,

Behind my window I heard the sound,

Night came as I sat by my warming crouch,

Knowing that a rainfall brings out drought,

As I close my eyes and force myself to sleep,

Images of you flashes within deep.

Though the rain had washed my tears for you,

it will never remove any love I feel.”

[To be Cont]

{ 雨の天使 }

Rain Angel

Chapter 11

[ I hate the rain... ]

It rained that night, the next night and the next.
It rained on the day that you were cremated.
It then rained subsequently for 7 days straight.
KaiLoke is gone. The rain had taken his life.

My eyes are swollen, my smile is gone. My tears have dried up, my mouth stop to talk.
I sat back and think back what that guy said to me.
“What’s so great about being happy?”
Maybe he was right.

To see someone whom you see everyday suddenly gone forever.
This kind of sadness and pain is something which few got through.
Those who’ve experienced will know what I want to say.

KaiLoke… I Miss you..

“Ah hui”
KaiLoke’s mother called her after a few days after his cremation.

“Yes Auntie?”

“Can you come over to my place later? I’ve got something to pass you”

“Orhh… ok I’ll try”
Mavis put down the phone with a heavy heart.

Mavis didn’t want to go.
She didn’t have enough courage to face them.
To lose their son in an accident is terrible enough, knowing that he came for her was worse.
It must have taken them a lot of courage to pull through.

“I guess KaiLoke would want me to accompany them and talk to them more often”
“Maybe they will think less of him by talking with me”

Mavis made her way to his home.

“Ah hui, you are here. Come in please”
KaiLoke’s mother opened their 4 roomed flat to her.

It was the first time she had gone to their place after they moved out of the same block as her family 2 years ago.
The house was simple, yet neat and spacious unlike her own.

“Ah pa should have sell fish instead…”

“Meihui…”
Mavis turned.

“You are…. KaiWen?”
Mavis covered her mouth.

“Oh my god.. it’s been so long…”

“Yeah.. too bad I couldn’t make it to Ah Gor’s funeral. The air tickets back to Singapore was fully booked.

“Ah Wen reached home after Ah Loke was cremated. He had been busy settling the remaining paperwork since”

KaiLoke’s mother spoke as she brought a cup of tea to her.

“So… Auntie.. what is it that you want to give me?”

KaiLoke’s mother asked Mavis to go inside his room.

It was the first time she ever sat foot in his room. Mavis could still remembered that KaiLoke had banned her from entering his room since she started in junior college.
They even quarreled and didn’t talk to each other for a period of time over this.

On the walls, were a giant portrait of a girl right behind his bed.

“It’s… me….”

Mavis walked towards the portrait.

“KaiLoke always wanted to give you this since your 16th birthday”
KaiWen came in.

“But… Why?”

“Don’t tell me you didn’t know that he liked you all along?”
Those words were smeared with sourness as she took it.

“I….. don’t know… what to say…”
Mavis walked towards the portrait.
“He liked you since young, he was always there to protect you.”
KaiWen continued.

“But he didn’t have the courage to tell you. He was afraid that you will avoid him if you know about it”

“I…”

Mavis then notice some books on his desk.
There were a few A level’s books lying on his table.

KaiWen saw the books too but he has no idea why the books were there.

Mavis walked up to the books and start flipping.

Every page of each textbook has a sentence.

“Chen Kai Loke… Loves…. Guo Mei Hui”

Mavis flipped the last textbook, the last page was different from the rest.
It was a written paragraph.

[ I know it’s stupid of me to do this and I can’t explain why I’m so attracted to her.
Maybe this is what people call Love.
I call this blindly in love.

I watched her grow from a cute naughty girl to a young pretty lady.
It hurts me every time to see she had a fall.
It will put a smile on my face when I see her arranging the carrots.
She is always clumsy when you ask her to carry things.

No one will know why I give up my studies.
Ah Ma will think I’m saving up the money for KaiWen.
It’s only half true, let them believe it.

I gave up my junior college placing because of her.
I want to wait for her.
I want to go to the same University with her.
I want to take care of her forever.
I know She may not like me…
But it is enough for me to have a chance to be with her…

16th May 2007]

It was written on the day of accident.
Everyone in the room cried.

Mavis especially. She had thought her tears had dried up.
It just keeping flowing out.

She cried because she know she would not have accepted him.
She cried because she can’t repay anything to him for what he had done for her.
She cried because she never had the chance to say ‘Thank You’ & ‘Sorry’ to him forever.

Mavis had requested the portrait to be hang up in his room.
She hope that it will accompany him at least.

Mavis left the house with a broken heart.
She had thought that she had recovered from the sadness.

It seems that the sadness have just begin.

Mavis walked to the park.

It was her soul asylum, a place where she could cry all she want.
It was a place where she could just stare at the flowers.

As she stood at the park, the sky had long darkened at her ignorance.
Soon the rain dropped.

Mavis just stood there.

The rain got bigger.

Mavis continued standing there closing her eyes.
Her mind was in shock over sadness or sadness over shock.

Mavis couldn’t feel the rain drops anymore.
She opened her eyes and looked up to an umbrella.

“Why are you standing in the rain?”

Wilson was holding the umbrella to cover her letting himself wet in the process.

“Why do you care?”
Mavis turned back.

“Why don’t I care? Who was the one who asked me to be happy?”

“What’s the point of being happy?”
Mavis cried again.

“You don’t need a reason to be happy right?”
Wilson sensing something is wrong with her today.

“Are you ok?”
Wilson tried to turn her around.

“Leave me alone!! LET GO!”

“Why are you so sad? What happen?”

“What do you know??? HAVE YOUR BEST FRIEND EVER DIED JUST LIKE THAT?”

“What~??~?? Hanling is dead??”
Wilson got a shock.

“NO NO NO I never said it’s her, you’ll never understand.”

“But you shouldn’t do this to yourself, you are only damaging yourself…”

“WHAT’S THE PROBLEM?? I DON’T EVEN HAVE THE RIGHT TO CRY?”
“WHAT DO YOU KNOW?”

Wilson was stunned by her words, rather her tone.
The cheerful girl whom he met few months ago was gone.

“Yes, I know… I know your feeling now. Please cry it all out.. You will feel better”

“I HATE THE RAIN! I’ll never forgive the rain”

Wilson suddenly threw away the umbrella and hugged her.
She just continued to cry in his arms.
And the rain kept coming at them.

“I truly understand what you’ve gone through…”
Wilson can only consoled her as she just kept hitting him.

[To be Cont]

{ 雨の天使 }

Rain Angel

Chapter 10
[ The Rain that I’ll never forget… ]

Have you ever hate someone or something so much that it hurts your heart the moment you began to think about it?
The hurt is so much that you don’t even know how to react?
That someone whom you always trusted did the unimaginable.
I always thought life should be full of love and happiness.
No one or no things are to be disliked by anyone.
Some things can forgiven… but cannot be forgotten.
I’m beginning to hate the rain….


“How is he…?”
Mavis walked to his bed, panting as she had run all the way from the drop point.

She didn’t know what to say as she saw all the tubings and cables connected to KaiLoke. There were a lot of bandages and he was still in a coma. The sight of him drew tears straight from the heart as she advanced into the Intensive-Care Unit.

“How is Loke? Auntie?”

KaiLoKe’s mother can only held onto his father and weeped.

“How is KaiLoke, Ma…”

Mavis turned to her own parents instead.

“We don’t know Ah hui. We reached no long ago.”

“All we know is that KaiLoke had met an accident. We rushed down after informing you.. Poor kid…”

Mavis’s father sighed.

“But why he had an accident?”

“His car skidded along the expressway. It crashed onto the divider”
Loke’s father started telling.

“But shouldn’t he be at home? Preparing for tommorrow’s business?”

Mavis just cannot believe it.
She had never know KaiLoke as a dangerous driver.

“It was rainning quite heavily and he said that he’s going to pick you up before it rains”

“Why the rain…..?”
Mavis couldn’t believe what they have told her.

“Why must it be the rain…?”

“So what did the doctor say?”
Mavis turned her attention.

“The doctor said there’s some blood clot in his left brain. They are preparing to see if they can perform an operation tomorrow morning”

Mavis kneeled beside his bed.

“Loke, you must be strong…”

She touched his forehead.

“We make a move first… Mavis you joining us?”
Mavis’s father called after he console KaiLoke’s parents.

“Don’t worry, don’t think too much…”

“Yeah.. should not be anything critical. If not the operation would have done immediately”
Mavis’s father knew this kind of words might not be the best of all consoles but that was all that he could think of.

“Pa, Ma. Can I stay with him?”
Mavis requested.

“Ok… you take care of yourself okie? The hospital gets very cold at night”

Mavis’s parent had left the ICU.

“Auntie, Uncle. You want to go home too? I can take care of him”
Mavis suggested.

KaiLoke’s mother wasn’t responsing.
All her weeping had caused her to be phyiscally and emotionally drained. She had fallen asleep.
All the tiredness had caused a great impact to her.

“Ah hui, Are you sure you can take care of him tonight?”
KaiLoke’s father asked.

“Yeah..I can take care of him…”

“We’ll come back tomorrow morning okie? I think Loke’s mother is really tired”
KaiLoke's father carried her as he speaks.

“Yeah. Uncle, don’t worry. I will call you if he wakes up during the night”

“Ok… you take care of yourself too..”

They too walked out of the ICU.

The night seems extremelly and bitterly cold when you are alone in the hospital. Mavis took out a jacket and hung on herself.

She then walked over to his bed and tried to pull up his blanket.

Mavis just sat there watching him.

She think back all the memories that they shared since they were young. Loke had always take care of her as far as she can remember. Growing up together means they shared almost all the fun that a child cannot forget in his/her life.

Rain drops slowly hit the window.

Soon, it was rainning again.

It was cold enough to be alone, the rain seems to make it worse.

Mavis looked at KaiLoke.

“Loke.. you must wake up… or I will not talk to you anymore..”
Mavis hoped it will help by talking to him. It always worked in shows and movie.

She started talking their young times.
The days when they first met at the playground outside the wet market. The days when she fell sick and Loke had to carry her all the way from the market to the clinic. The days when she did well in her examinations.

Soon the rain was getting bigger.

“Stop.. the rain….stop it”
Mavis couldn’t hold onto herself anymore.
There was no one there for her to comfort her, to ask her not to cry.

Mavis wiped her tears and took out a tissue to wipe his forehead..

She felt something on his cheeks.

It was tears…

“Nurse!! Nurse, Doctor…!”
Mavis ran outside the ward room.

A few Doctors came and took a look at him.
They were taking his heart beat, blood pressure and all sorts of examinations.

Mavis quietly stood there and watched.

Suddenly one of the doctors shouted…

“His blood pressure is going down. We’re losing him!!”

The rest of the doctors hurried to do immediate rescure.

Mavis hurried to his bed.

“KaiLoke!! KaiLoke..!! What happened?? Didn’t he woke up…!!??”


No one was able to answer her.

Mavis was there looking at him, wiping his sweat and holding onto his hand.

KaiLoke opened his eyes and looked at Mavis.

He tried to said something… but she couldn’t make out what he was saying.

“Ah hui….”

“Yes, I hear you KaiLoke… I hear you… Please don’t give up!!”

“Ah Hui… I……..”

“Don’t give up okie??? Don’t give up on your parents… Don’t give up on Me…..”

Mavis wasn’t able to control herself anymore

“Ah Hui…………I………..Love……….. You………”

And all went still.

The doctors had stopped.
The beeping sound of the heart beat equipment went constant.

He was gone…
Mavis held on him and cried…

She didn’t know how long she had cried..

As the hopsital informed the family.
Mavis sat at the corner alone.
Her tears contiune to drip as the as the rain drops contiune to hit the window.

She stared at the rain…

The rain that killed her best friend, her brother and someone that love her.

She hated the rain…




[To be Cont]

What is it that you like to do?

Do you know what is the thing that you really like to do?
Some people might call it a hobby.
But a hobby is only done through your free time right?

So think again, what is it that you like to do?
Something that will put a smile on your face despite the hectic lifestyle that you are going through each day.

I like to watch the rain drops falling down from the sky from the first drop.
I like to accomplish my job assignments in office that makes everyone’s day.
I like to take a walk through the park with my wife after dinner.
I like to see my wife being happy each day.
I like to her and my family to have happy memories that they can remember throughout their life.

I like the things that I'm good at doing.

When you are good, you are expected to be better.
When you are better, people expect the best from you.
What comes after the best?
Consistency?
Reliability?
Continuous improvement?

Until….?

The day that you don't like doing it anymore.
When you don't like doing it, whatever people tell you is not important.

When you like to do something, shouldn't you be doing it as you like it?

Recently I began writing a lot, on the web, in my blog.
I've completed one story, in the mist of completing the next.

People have told me it's a good try for the first.
Then expect better from the second.

The second story wasn't that well received as the first.
Nobody commented well on it.

Maybe it's really bad.
Maybe my first attempt was a fluke.
Maybe I should stop writing altogether.

“Why do care so much from other people's point of view?”
Jo told me.

“What makes a good story? It's something that will relate to people in their life”
I told myself.

“I will continue writing.”
Even if there’s only 1 person reading.

“I will continue…”

Because it’s the memories that I leave for the reader to remember.
One day throughout their life, they will remember the stories that they once read and how it related to them.

And they will remember someone who writes them.

That's me…

Anntonii Lim