[My Primary School]

The life in primary school is all about friendship, having the same group of people doing almost the same thing everyday. Study wasn't really a pressure as there were fewer subjects and easier topic than now.

Primary school life is all about discovery, about the meaning of being number 1 in class, being the teacher's pet and being the everybody's favourite friend...

[Friends]
When we were young.. there wasn't any christian names to remember, all were in simple chinese hanyu pinying. I had quite a few good friends whom I still meet up often.. Years have passed through our life and many things have happened.. Thats why it feels kinda strange to meet up as we were only talking about "the good old days".

I do treasure our friendship as they the ones which leaves me an impression of how I was when I was in Primary School.. incidents where I make people cried, where I hid my classmate's pad and she was so panicked...

[Study]
I was never the first in class.. as the first in class was always also the first in school...
I was never second.. no matter how hard I've tried..
I was always third... being miles apart from the 1st two. Though I had a whole list of people behind me, I hated the feeling of competition.. why must people compete? Maybe I was afraid of losing out.. or maybe I had lost out twice in Primary 4 & 5..

I began to lost the feeling of study.. I just feel that maybe if I study less, I might end up happier..
My grades dropped & I wasn't even in the top 20 anymore.. Finally my pressures were gone.. no one bother to ask about my grades anymore..

I began to mix with more complicated people around my neighbourhood.. end up being caught by the police for playing poker cards at voiddeck.. We were really young then.. so he wasn't really gonna lock us up.. merely took away our cards and ask us to go home....

I ran & ran.. and cried as I ran home... what was I doing? playing cards & marbles at the eve of my PSLE exams.. is it too late to turn back and study better?
It is always never too late to turn around.. ask many people would say.. and yes.. I did passed my PSLE.. but never really did to my teacher's expectation of me..

The only good thing that happen was.. many of my friends went to the same school with me..

[Anntonii's AutoBiography]

[In the Beginning]

I was born in the mist close to midnight on Nov 22nd 1978...around 10.31pm, which basically makes me a half scropio & sagittarus according to different calenders.
I grow up in a close knitted family, living with apart with my parents, my 2 uncles, 1 aunt & my grandparents.

Being the only child in the family, I was quite spoilt by my uncles & grandparents as they would try their best to make me happy.

[My Kindergarden Days]

Being brought up in a dialect speaking family, I know nuts about English and my first english word is almost same with everyone else.. "A for Apple"...
During my kindergarden days, I was kinda talkative in class and would always be "punished" for
not doing my work.

My first drawing of a person.. remains a mystery till today on why I colored his face black...
I don't remember any of my kindergarden classmates anymore even if I would to see them in the same bus..

I remembered asking my mum a question.. "Do Trees talk?"
"I suppose trees talk by moving their branches..." Trees are afterall a living thing like us, shouldn't they talk to each other? shouldn't they make friends like us? Questions like these would lead to no answers I suppose.. but this remains a interesting of my childhood...

Anntonii

Was wondering what to write in my blog lately....
Who's going to read about what i wrote? [Nobody I suppose]
What's there to write about? [My life's never been satisfying anyway..]

Well, and so I suppose that [Nobody reads] my blog and [my life's sux] so far...
so might as well write something about my life...

So as to keep some of my memories inside this little cyberspace...

[- True Love -]

True love comes straight from the heart not the mind. It starts with a simple meeting with two people, from the first conversation comes the mutual respect. Soon, without realizing it, there’s a feeling of likeness in the air. From likeness, it gradually grows to love. But true love does not end here.
From love, there’s commitment. The feeling stop you from starting any other possible cases of likeness with other people. The same feeling which get you back to the same person whom you have been sharing your life with.
Many people never went to the stage of commitment, only to blame themselves later for never experiencing true love. If loving is easy, living your hectic life would be easier.
Stories of love are being shared among us everyday, yet there aren’t many of which we can remember. A love story comes from your own experience, not something that you’ve heard or seen. If there is one love story that you can ever remember in your life, it would be something that you had gone through..
True love is a gift. Though finding it may be hard, keeping it is harder than anyone can imagine. We struggle through all our life in search of it, yet when we find it, it just disappear. Just like sand sipping your hands, never to return again.
True love means happiness for your partner even if it means sufferings for you. As much as we would want to deny it, we do sacrifice for love. A simple give in during a heated argument can prevent harsh words being used and breaking of hearts. So next time when you think your partner is unreasonable, think again. You could make he/she less annoyed by giving in just this once. You may give in many, many times in your relationship but at least you know its worth the effort when the storm is over.
True love will be tested one day, only then the declaration for one another is truthful. Temptations will always be there, there will always be someone nicer, younger or more beautiful than your current one. Only will that day tell your truthfulness towards your heart and your soul.
The pureness of True Love is one thing that keeps people going, throughout their life. The simplest things that you do for her will get happiness in return. One sad thing about the pureness of True Love is the existence of temptation. Whether is it materialism or lust, people always find themselves stuck in a situation and therefore love died down in time…
As far as I can see, we all yearn for that simple undying love that rumors to exist. Its out there somewhere, clouded by the deceiving facts of life and overshadowed by the logical mindset of humans.
True Love exists deep down our hearts…

Weather seems to affect one's mood.

Today's gloomy weather has once again slacken quite a few of our minds as we dragged through the long day ahead. Not long ago, we were complaining about how hot the weather is these days.. and now we are complaining about the rain..
When will we be ever satisfied with what we have given?

You don't need to watch "The day after tomorrow" to know our Earth is dying..
But it won't happen in your lifetime.. so why bothers..
This seems to be the answer on everyone's lips.

Whatever it is.. Earth will still die one day.. but hopefully not today...

Anntonii

A brand new day in life means a new beginning..
yesterday's achievements will be remembered,
yesterday's arguement will be forgotten.
tomorrow's success will be based on today
tomorrow's problems will also be determined on today.

The choronics of life will move on, nothing has changed from the past..
maybe except our age as time passes.. and our thoughts...

Anntonii